this_is_me

chilling

2011-07-20T22:50:00.002+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. people say after a tiring day .. all you need is to chill .. i feel like chilling now .. with a glass of wine(anything alcohol), light food, lazy chair .. and do nothing .. jus do completely nothing .. i miss times like these

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

not at the centre

2011-07-17T23:00:00.004+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. indeed it was scandalous .. just last week we were following the Thais to have our own yellow and red team .. they did "march" in the capital city .. cops everywhere .. tear gas .. water cannons .. and tonnes of media and attention .. there were massive jamm .. road blocks .. and it was the talk of every foreigner .. local .. for at least one week(me being one of them) .. hence after all the chaos what did it actually bring .. accomplish .. anyway life still goes on .. people still go shopping .. having fabulous dinner ..

above it all it was also my grandma birthday .. be proud grandma .. i will always remember this year birthday as it has the most attention mind blowing experience .. i was not at the centre of the scene .. if i were there what could i do ?? spread pixie dust .. give them flowers .. or do miss malaysia speech("world peace") .. back to grandma birthday .. enjoy the pics ..

food - i only took the 1st one .. after that i was busy eating

Grandma is soo happy :)

Live band

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

counting down

2011-06-28T22:47:00.003+08:00

aL here .. your one and only source to my scandalous world .. they say a blog is easy to mantain .. i say once u have it .. own it .. then u know how hard to mantain it .. i am counting down when i will have the time to update more .. i do have lots of things to say .. stay tune

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

we still can

2011-04-29T23:35:00.003+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. they say fairy tales is fairy tale .. it rarely come true .. i say fairy tale is a fantasy for every person in this world .. it does not come true .. maybe one in a billion people .. but there is always that lucky B*tch .. and hence the ROYAL WEDDING .. i watch it .. it was a fantastic affair .. lots of beautiful hats .. royalty .. super star and all the glamour .. soo since William is off the market .. we still have Harry .. we still can dream .....

if i were to marry to Harry .. and i say IF since this is a fantasy .. well i will still have it at the same place Westminister Abbey .. instead of Alexander McQueen, i will wear Bernard Chandran .. shoes .. definitely Jimmy Choo .. Tiara will be custom made by Habib Jewels .. 2 of my close friends will be my maids of honour instead of one coz my gown train lengths will be longer than Diana .. the reception will be at the palace where guests will be served of the finest Malaysian & British culinary cook by Chef Wan .. and the guest list will be the who & who of society ...

*shattering sound* time to wake up ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

MARIE FRANCE ???

2011-03-08T23:18:00.003+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. people say .. loosing weight is easy .. you just need to exercise .. well i say .. that is rubbish .. lossing weight is hard .. exercise .. diet .. slimming .. that is hard .. for me personally .. i find it very hard to loose weight .. it has been an issue for me for sooo many years .. some of my close friends will know that this has been a resolution .. a commitment .. an objective but ...

i am still fat .. and getting fatter .. i have a gym .. i don't go .. i diet but fails cause seriously how can you go on diet in Penang .. IMPOSSIBLE .. i tried personal trainer .. that fail .. i am soo tied up at work .. SGM .. social life .. soo what's left .. MARIE FRANCE ??? too expensive ... to be honest can i just go and eat .. and be fat .. in the world nowadys u need to be fabulous and I AM NOT .. what shud i do ?? i have no idea ...

one thing for sure .. i need to work out .. i need a work out buddy who can suits my time .. a gym partner who can give me the boost to work out .. i can't be single .. i talk to much .. i am too shy to go to do things myself .. soo anyone interested ??

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

ANOTHER STATEMENT

2011-03-02T23:30:00.005+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. there is a saying a married people is off the hook .. to me .. a married people and a secret affair is definitely off the hook .. soo if you encounter this .. will you still date the married person and fall in love .. since he/she already have a mistress .. do you mind to be the next one ?? are you willing to be the home wrecker ??

regardless in gay, lesbian .. straight relationship ... will you still do it ?? some people will .. and as Lady Gaga says,"A DIFFERENT LOVER is not a SIN" ....

was browsing thru my pic the other day .. ANOTHER STATEMENT moment ...

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

Updates : the sinful affair did happen .. after many rounds of crying and sobbing .. does it not help to wonder is it all worth it .. but you have made your choice.. no matter what is it .. people knows and how do you expect we to rescue you?? - xoxo

LOL

2011-02-25T00:11:00.005+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. it's been a while ..

the times when we gossip.. coffee and all the bad stuff.. to bad there can't be a 3 way conversation....

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

I WAS BORN TO BE BRAVE

2011-02-11T23:06:00.002+08:00

al here .. ur one and only soure to my scandalous world ....

DON'T BE A DRAG, JUST BE A QUEEN
WHETHER YOU'RE BROKE OR EVERGREEN
YOU'RE BLACK, WHITE, BEIGE, CHOLA DESCENT
YOU'RE LEBANESE, YOU'RE ORIENT
WHETHER LIFE'S DISABILITIES
LEFT YOU OUTCAST, BULLIED, OR TEASED
REJOICE AND LOVE YOURSELF TODAY
'CAUSE BABY YOU WERE BORN THIS WAY

NO MATTER GAY, STRAIGHT, OR BI,
LESBIAN, TRANSGENDERED LIFE
I'M ON THE RIGHT TRACK BABY
I WAS BORN TO SURVIVE
NO MATTER BLACK, WHITE OR BEIGE
CHOLA OR ORIENT MADE
I'M ON THE RIGHT TRACK BABY
I WAS BORN TO BE BRAVE

Lady Gaga ....

this song is soo inspiring to me .. i was bullied, teased and also an outcast at one point of my life .. thinking back .. i am born to be brave ... look where i am now ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

valuable lesson

2011-01-16T19:55:00.002+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. courtesy and respect .. this is very important .. if u want people to respect you, you should respect people in the 1st place .. when i was on holiday .. i learn this valuable lesson ..

i was lack of currency and rush into this old shop where they can change .. there was a customer in front .. i was waiting and when it was my turn .. i ask bout the exchange rate .. then she had a call .. i being a buyer .. take the calculator and start calculating .. well in the world of negotiating .. u need to set an objective .. and i show her how much i wanted .. that old lady instead of being friendly and say good things .. call me insane .. *pause* afta that she threw my RM and say i was being rude and do not want my business .. i was like .. *pause* .. what ... yes ur an old lady .. u shud let people show u some respect .. is this even the way to do business ?? i was piss .. she raise her voice .. i raise mine .. at the end of the day i just left the shop and swear not to go back there ..

NO.1) she call me rude .. what the hell did i do ?? u were being rude .. what happen to common politeness .. "sorry, i am in a call .. i'll get back to u in few mins"
No.2) u call me insane and stupid .. sorry but u open a business .. and ur not a bank .. hence everything is open for negotiation .. if ur in PG earlier ur shop will close down ..
No.3) is that a way to talk .. raising voice and swearing .. not to say ur on old lady .. u should show example to the young ones ..

worst part .. my mom says i am rude ... soo people .. am i being rude ??
maybe i am but ...

i know you still love me
xoxo

~aL~

the right clique

2011-01-04T23:06:00.004+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. today is the 1st day of work for some people .. unfortunately its not for me .. my phone kept ringing the whole day .. WORK WORK WORK .. well .. since i am still "sick" i will be at home resting and tomorrow as well .. i am officially over my quarantine .. 7days at home .. finally .. i went out with my sis to celebrate and while we were talking a good topic came out .. finding the right clique .. the right crew ...

Finding the right clique is very very important .. all of us have friends, lots of friends .. but there will be certain groups where it is right for certain occasion .. for me .. when i go shopping, i will know who to look for .. although one of them is 1000miles away .. but hey .. he still gives good advice .. and i truly miss our shopping spree ..

and then we also must have the right clique for going singing .. as in karaoke .. we are not born singers .. if we are .. we are already a celeb .. hence u need friends who can sing as worst and as horrible .. at the end of the day you can just butcher Celine or Mariah and they will be glad to follow you along .. that i have found my clique as well .. not all of yr frens can be yr karoake-kaki's .. trust me .. not all

you also need clique for clubbing .. this is one which i feel is essential .. you need people who can dance and do stupid things .. if not after few rounds of alcohol .. it will be sad and boring if you are the only person dancing and playing a fool while the rest just watch in envy or disguise .. soo clubbing cliques is very important .. i have found as well ..

this are the few things where along the way of yr friendship you will know where the person clique is .. i have cliques who is fashionable .. i have cliques which can be who you are .. there is also cliques where you can be a bitch and a slut .. there is also cliques when u need to be reserved and stick to the current issues .. even when ur in gym u need to have the right clique .. soo .. have you find your cliques ????

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

finding a relationship

2011-01-03T14:16:00.002+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. i am still sick at home .. hibernating .. i could say that i have recovered but somehow still i am not feeling very well .. as i was chatting with a fren .. this phrase "it's the 3rd day of the brand new year, am i closer to be in a relationship??"

but in the start .. how do we find one .. finding a relationship is hard .. especially if the ones that is mutual and exclusive .. i have been in one before .. love all the sweet memories and everything good .. i just hate how it ended .. after that .. like i would say it has been very very dry .. how do we find one ?? some of my frens which is quite successful would thru the net .. its not that i dun belives in the world of the internet .. i prefer to see know someone in the real world .. to see that person .. and then slowly build a relationship .. but still kudos to those people who find their other half thru the net ...

some will resort to wert i say .. "pubilc areas" .. in that case .. some of my frens did became successful .. sort of .. but not knowing who the person is .. i feel that is quite dangerous .. u dunnow who the person is .. the background .. the disease that he might have .. is the person crazy ?? no one knows .. there is a risk .. and like my fren .. it was a painful long process .. slowly you must uncover what the person secret, habit attitude .. the history .. please jus count me out .. i like to know what the secret is .. how the habit .. the attitude ..i feel by knowing who the person is will make you more in control .. that way you will have more power and not at the loss ..

how do we find one .. internet .. public areas .. through friends .. is it by loosing the big V and simply slut around .. hmm ... to be honest .. i have no idea .. where do we began .. i would say destiny has its own way .. till you find someone that you love ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

this is the new year

2011-01-01T16:48:00.002+08:00

aL here .. ur one only source to my scandalous world .. WELCOME 2011 .. helooooo .. well .. evryone is soo excited .. i am not really very excited about it .. just maybe i am stuck at home .. but i did do a lot of thinking on my resolution .. this is the new year .. new resolution .. sooo what will it be .. what should i promise myself to do .. what should i be fighting for this year .. i have a list .. but i can't share it all here .. still i will share the most important ones ..

no.1 i will not make silly resolutions where i could not accomplish anymore .. enough of that .. i think my frens will know what i am talking about .. i will make resolutions where i can achieve and at the same time have fun doing at it .. soo people .. if ur thinking of doing one .. be more realistic .. in order words i will not make empty promises .. if i can't do it .. i will just say .. i can't .. no more saying yes and force myself to do it ...

no.2 to live a healthy life .. through out this whole year .. or shud i say since i started working .. i have been down with flu countless times .. seen the doc countless times and even during New Year Eve i am stuck at home .. i need to be more healthy .. need to change my eating habits and also to work out more .. and i am not getiing younger .. better watch those carbs and food that i eat .. overall .. live my life healthier ..

no.3 i need to be more financially stable .. need to have more savings .. need to have more money .. i should not be spending money soo much .. i admit i do buy things .. a lot of things .. but from now on .. less shopping .. and only buy stuff that i will use or stuff that is more visible .. like furniture or nice bags ... hmm .. not nice bags but i need to get my money arrange .. this is to say i need to live on a budget .. if not get more money ..

no.4 i need to really look into my career path .. is this the job that i want to do for the next 10 years .. i am at a lost on this .. i dunno where shud i start .. but i need to start somewhere .. i am going to talk with my boss and see how it goes .. and at the same time to search and venture .. what am i really passionate about .. i guess when we work that is the most important .. our passion .. but in the world today .. we need jobs that pay the rent .. the food .. my goal i think is to look for jobs that i am passionate and can pay for food and stuff ..

there is plenty more resolution but i guess thats all for now ..
one more resolution .. i will need to update my blog more often ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

NEW 2011

2011-01-01T00:20:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR to all my readers ....

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

2010 has come to an end

2010-12-30T16:34:00.001+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. people come and go .. friends come and go .. money come and go .. time come and go .. and without even finish saying i need more time .. the year has ended .. 2010 has come to an end .. and we welcome ourself with 2011 .. with the new year people has new beginning and new promises .. for me i did some time self reflecting on my 2010 ..

2010 has been a good year .. i had a job .. not amazing but yet fun .. i learn soo much .. i make new frens .. i lost some fren .. i did most of the time at work .. but yet i learn how to party and how to relax .. but 2010 has also been a rocky one .. there is soo many challenges where i look back and think ... how did i pull myself through all that .. i dunnow .. maybe because of my prayers .. hence now its 2011 ..

2011 .. it is coming .. to be honest i am quite sad of how i ended my 2010 and to welcome 2011 .. i am sick at home .. quarantine .. i was soo excited and going to KL .. to do shopping .. have fun .. go wild .. but i guess what you plan does not always go well .. i am at home .. quite depress but still bt watching TV and good concert clips i am assuming i am celebrating as well .. soo .. if u people out there who are having fun .. just let loose .. dun just sit and stare .. have a blast .. GO CRAZY ....

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

X'mas Exchange

2010-12-24T16:03:00.004+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. Mery Christmas .. Christmas has come .. and what better days to celebrate than to receive present and to give presents .. and this year i think this will be the only present i will receive .. its the time of giving and i had a hard time finding presents .. suddenly a colleague gave me an idea .. and well .. the rest is .. just shopping .. that will be the only shopping i will be doing for the month of Dec ..

anyway .. my colleagues choose to exchange the give during christmas eve itself .. hence it was paper everywhere in the meeting room but loads of happy face .. hence, less yapping and more pictures ..

~guess which is the one i give~

~the lovely presents~

~i am santa for one day~

~what i get~

~GROUP PHOTO~

my christmas eve this year was very quiet .. no loud parties .. not many drama .. but it was just a quiet time where i am thankful that i have been blessed with soo many wonderful things througout the years .. i am more excited on new year as i will be in KL .. soo NEW YEAR HERE I COME .. before that ...

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE

i know you love me

xoxo

~aL~

started christmas with

2010-12-22T22:18:00.004+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. it's the time again .. where you will see the colour red everywhere .. it's not Chinese New Year .. it's CHristmas .. it's the time to give and to be thankful .. this year it is really very different .. celebration started very early .. and everyone had a good time .. work has been slow as most of the companies are closed .. and our office is filled with laughter and joy .. not soo true .. there is a lil bit drama here and there .. but what would my life be without any drama ..

i started christmas early with dinner at Mizi with my colleagues .. we had a wonderful time eating .. growing fat .. gossip and pose for the camera once in a while .. as it was a working day it ended very early .. but i would say everyone had a good time

hence i would not say much as i would let the pictures do the talking ...

~Dinner at Mizi ~

~The Crazy Colleague ~

~the fattening but delicous foood~

~after dinner went to straits quay for some "exercise"~

~those candies are irresistable~

~Merry Christmas !!! ~

i know you love me

xoxo

~aL~

more worries

2010-12-19T23:03:00.003+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. as people say growing up is never easy and as u get older .. u will have more worries .. hence for my birthday this year .. i went on a trip .. there were massages .. good food and plenty of shopping ....

will blog more bout it soon ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

i stop

2010-12-18T18:11:00.003+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. maybe not that scandalous anymore .. they say you blog to express to the world of your feelings .. well i say blogging is a form of communication .. the last time that i really blog was almost one year ago .. i stop .. maybe cause i was facing writer blocked .. but now with all the juicy scandal that i have .. why shud i stop ???

this week in particular has been a very very interesting week .. the concert was "fun" .. i nva knew .. i see soo much .. i learn soo much .. it was really bad but as long as the ending was good .. then i guess its good after all .. well .. my friend blog did mention bout it .. hence read it all here .. its good to see my frens enjoy it ... am really glad that its over .....

work has been a bitch .. there is soo many things that need to be done .. i really miss my partner at work .. she is on MC due to .. just recover ASAP .. really need you here .. for now i just need to suck it all up and just do as much as i can ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

IS BAC ...

2010-12-12T22:37:00.001+08:00

i will be back bloggin real soon ... till then ...

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

soo angelic

2009-11-15T01:25:00.003+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. they say the joyous occasion is seeing a new life being brought in this world .. and i would say that babies are cute when they dun cry and being noisy .. looking at them is just makes ur day brighter and look how angelic one human being can be .. the wonders of baby ..

my boss recently gave birth to a very adorable baby daughter .. when i start work her stomach was big and i did see her goin thru the whole pregnancy thing .. and how she complain how hard for her to walk .. how she have all those cravings .. then one Fri she hand over back some things and off she goes to maternity .. one week later .. a cute baby girl was born .. hence everyone of us in the dept was excited to see the baby girl .. soo one fine day we went over .. and the baby was just very cute .. ok .. she is very very cute .. like you can just pinch her face but of coz her mother will ruin me .. soo i jus look at her small tiny feet and finger .. and just think how calm she was .. soo angelic ..

Isn't she CUTE ??

BABY EUNICE

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

Work

2009-11-14T11:12:00.004+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. after having a break from all the stuff that happen .. it will be work once again .. people say when you work the drama will be less as you will be caught in your reports, planning etc etc .. but once you work .. the drama will be more intense and more thrilling .. and certain things is better left unsaid ..

my friend is now worried about what will it be like when you start working .. what will the job be .. what is the pay .. who am i staying with .. what is the whole scene goin to be like .. well .. jus dun plan ahead first .. you will figure out everything and you will know what to do .. when the time comes .. you will know .. well when we work .. when we start working .. it is definitely less drama .. but there will always be drama .. but you will lesson learn at work .. dun trust people soo much .. and jus do your work .. one thing i learn from it all .. you work too much .. hence you must play equally hard ..

the FOOD

the FOOD

TEAM MATE

TEAM

MT .. SY .. CARMEN

LF .. MEL .. ME ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

the raya break

2009-09-27T21:53:00.004+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. work has been piling up .. and life has been getting much more dramatic .. things happen .. quarrels .. fights .. stress and everything .. its jus too much for me to handle .. when everythings a mess .. the only way to get out is to get away from it all ..

for such a long holiday during the raya break .. i went off to KL .. just to relax my mind and hell i did that .. i met my cousin .. friends and had a blast .. instead of goin to raya open house .. i went to the mall .. and done some "spritual cleansing" along the way .. but when ur away .. the drama will follow u as well .. when i tot the night of partying was bout to over .. someone is always there to make a small lil drama .. well .. this is to make my life more interesting .. but my opinion .. it was not bout the drama that the person make .. its more like .. why are you acting like a fren but u behave like this? lets not elaborate the details .. but enjoy the pics below ..

~instead of ketupat .. i had CARLS JR~

~kuih raya replaced by Krispy KREME~

~posing while shoping~

~"the POPE" Trying his NEW robe~

~buka puasa in TENJI~

~take all you want FRESH OYSTERS~

~STIMMBOAT~

~iL with his food~

~iL looking for more food ... kH prayin before he start~

~the food is jus beyond words~

i know i miss KL
xoxo

~aL~

ps: SELAMAT HARI RAYA - i know its late but still its not over yet ...

Dun surprise me to much ...

2009-09-16T20:50:00.002+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. i guess in life .. there will be the good side and also the bad side .. and when everything is on the good side .. there will always be things that will ruin it .. after all when life pulls you down .. what you can do is jus get back up ...

work has been stressfull .. i have been telling people how my work sucks .. which is true .. the job is okie .. jus that the workload is like .. OMFFG .. but i guess this is work and am glad to have good people at work .. altho there will be some people which are bad .. but there is still good people .. i need to have more nice energy .. one thing bout my work .. u will nva know what happened 2molo .. or the day afta .. it will be full of surprises ..

in life you will be filled with surprise .. but sometimes some surprise will either make you or break you .. as i grow up i dun like surprises anymore .. coz it is always sad .. i jus prefer to know things now .. i really dun like surprises anymore .. but i do hope the good ones will come .. i dun wan the bad ones already .. i wan the good ones now .. till then when will my surprise come ?? jus dun surprise me to much ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

two people come together

2009-09-12T23:38:00.002+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source from my scandalous world .. there will be no long message or long complains .. it will be just this ..

"There’s one indulgence every man should try in his lifetime: If you’re straight, sleep with a man at least once, and if you’re gay, don’t go through life without sleeping with a woman. Either way, you might be surprised at how natural it will feel if you can get past the mind-fuck of stereotypes. In the end, it’s just another person that you are relating to in a physical way."- TOM FORD

direct translation

don't be afraid to sleep with anyone, if you're gay, sleep with a woman, if you're straight, have sex with a man .. in the end it's just how two people come together - jH

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

you can't have it all

2009-09-06T19:03:00.003+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. they say in life you can't have it all .. its either this or that .. and what i am reminded of is that .. you really can't have it all .. while my weekend was fun .. i am reminded of what torture i will be in the following week .. while i know the people around me is good .. i am reminded that there is a few bad apples also ..

i guess at the end of the day .. reality will hit all of us .. and once again we will be let down by dissapointment .. dissapointed on how the person acted .. dissapointed that things are not the way it should be .. but this is life .. and life is all bout dissapointment .. you can't have it all .. what i can say is .. dun put all ur eggs in one basket .. dun do nice things to bad people .. and dun be fooled by the outlook ..

i know u love me
xoxo

~aL~

rescue along the way ...

2009-09-06T03:49:00.001+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. work is beginning to take over my life .. there is a part of me which wanna explode everytime i think bout my job .. but it is still a job and stuff that you either do it or if you don't you will die .. and when my job is bout to kill me .. there will be rescue along the way ..

and what betta way to spend my weekend with a dear friend whom i have not seen for 14 weeks .. the outing was i could say .. bring me back to old memories .. and also back to my roots .. from re-kindling what movie we would watch to what we did a long time ago .. and still doing it again .. i could say there will be no other groups which is the same as them .. as crazy as possible .. as daring as possible and as adventurous .. i realli do miss the good ol times when we have no worries .. where our worries was who to date .. what to buy .. how my mom is goin to kil me of bad results .. it was stress back then but nothing can compare to the shit i am in .. so i am looking forward for the nex big outing where each and everyone is back and can start to do all the crazy things .. from following random people to adoring at sushi plates ..

i know u love me
xoxo

~aL~

much more interesting ..

2009-07-03T22:09:00.004+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. life has been pretty much fun .. afta college .. i guess there is seriously nothing much to do nowadays .. what will it be next ?? when i tot the answers were vague .. there will be a twist to it .. hence the drama will be much more interesting ..

i could say that a part of my study life has come to an end .. and i did hav fun for almost or shud i say more than a month .. well .. i realli need to unwind .. afta all the long torturing hours of doing coursework and also test .. i guess it is wise if i jus partied my life .. but when a fren ask me 2 applied for a job .. life took on a dramatic turn .. i could say that the job was realli a surprised for me .. the day i went for interview i was realli jus not expecting nor prepared .. i jus go .. furthermore, i need 2 drop my frens at the airport soo .. i took it as a time to meet my frens .. and hence off to teh interview .. i could say that i was not nervous .. just normal and when my turn came .. i entered and 4mins later i was out .. but my fren who followed me took like forever .. and when he came out .. he was like i got offered the job .. etc etc .. i am like congratx .. and when the HR guy came out .. he told me and i quote .. "aL & Mel ... both of u are hired .. go to PSDC now and sign the contract..."

i am just speecless .. like dumb founded .. what shud i do .. i called tonnes of people .. ask a lot of people about their opinion .. and my lecturer called us .. and jus say .. JUST SIGN THE CONTRACT .. DO IT .. i am like .. OKI .. once sign and thats the beginning of my working life .. in jus one morning .. and now i am working .. goin for training .. waking up early in the morning .. and sleeping early .. well .. i guess this is working ..

here are some pictures of the outing ..

~iMel is always soo HAPPy~

~mE~

~mIllyMean.com~

~sHroom~

~The GROUP PIC~

~The DRINK~

~TOO MUCH TOO HANDLE~

i know you love me ..
xoxo

~aL~

definitely is ..........

2009-05-30T00:02:00.003+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. college life was indeed fun .. the people .. the drama .. the outings .. the gossip .. but in just in a matter of days its all over .. i finished my assignment .. now the test is over .. the damm hard ethics test .. but i could say .. when times are hard there will be people helping me .. altho the ethics paper was hard but i have people who i can rely on and help me through the paper .. but i could not say that to other things ..

i would say all these while my life has been very nice .. i could get things that i want .. or maybe get a proper education and meal .. soo i guess life is perfect .. until i found out that in this world all of us will have problems .. problems that u nva seem to know how 2 end it .. do u fight it ?? or do u shun from it ?? i already know whats the answer but sometimes it is better that someone tell me to my face that this is answer .. i am HUMAN .. i do make mistakes and at times i might be screwing things up .. at the end of the day when problems are hard to solve .. i can give up and say .. i had enuf .. but at the end of the day .. i still need to solve it .. and altho i am tired and sick of everything i still need to tell myself .. i need 2 move on .. 2 continue fighting .. it's hard .. it's definitely is .. but i know i need to solve it or it will me haunt me if i dun ..

- the many FACES of me -

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

is this what called college life

2009-05-03T16:51:00.007+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. thesis is finally over and done with .. now is hoping that the result will be good .. really do hope so .. now whats left is assignment and exam .. afta that .. it will be a whole new world .. but i realised there is no definitely smooth sailing in this route ..

my thesis is over .. and now i realli need to finish my coursework .. afta that i am free .. my fren been planning on a class trip where gew of us would go somewhere in M'sia .. goin on an escapade .. but that will be afta our coursework before our exam .. soo can't wait .. college life is definitely soo much fun .. all the supper, Wii, cooking etc etc .. is this what called college life .. i definitely goin to miss it .. and i can say lately there is soo much drama free college .. except for a few here and there .. but nothing huge or big ..

but there is definitely one drama in my life .. sometimes i am realli in the middle .. when i treat u good .. u give me ur claws and nasty back-stabing .. when i treat u like shit .. i just kenot do it .. but everytime u will do ur irratating action and ur nasty back-stabing skills on me .. why ?? u craxy ah ?? u too free izzit ?? u wan 2 see more drama izzit ?? sometimes certain things dun go act clever and assume that ur in the right .. and ur not very clever coz u study in some government school .. it does not make u special ..

with soo much things for me to do .. all i hope is one day you will change ur attitude coz i dunnow how long will i take my claws out and start to retaliate .. anyway .. here are some pics of the outing .. thanxx to MiLLy .. our photographer ..

~ happy BIrthday YEE MAN & WENDY~

~ SUPPER in ALI ~

~ morning till night also must eat ~

~ CASS INVENTION ... till now i nva taste yet also .. hmmpf ~

~ hY jus kenot wait 2 indulge ~

~ milly soo called choc milk shake ~

~ wY ... i am forced to smillee ~

~ me * millymean.com ... hehehe ~

~ milly new wallet .. the GUARDIAN BRAND ~

~ imEl ... wwhhaatt !!! ~

~ GULP ... GULP .. GULP .. arrrrhhhh ~

~ Melvin and urs truly ... ~

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

kenot compete

2009-04-25T23:05:00.003+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. people leaving and saying goodbye .. thesis were realli catching up and still enjoying my last few months of studying with my mates .. but when everything comes in .. there is definitely something else new to discover ..

thesis or dissertation or whatever you called it .. finally its over .. all the sleepless nights of thinking bout it .. doing .. working .. meeting the supervisor and work work work .. its over .. over and done with .. i shud say i am realli glad that its over .. but i discovered bout soo many things bout my title .. i did on Penang Heritage .. coz i feel that its unique and afta much doing at the research i hit a rock .. coz i am not realli sure bout all the ad being used in it .. so i found a website and ask this lovely lady about Penang Heritage .. afta sending her an e-mail she replied and further questions were being asked .. and instead of being helpful ..........

this is what she reply me ..

" Alvin,

I am sorry I cannot answer all your questions. Like I said: go out and do
your own research and come out with your own argument/opinion for your report.

Do not be lazy.

-xxxxx"

i am speechless .. SHOCKED .. it was like wasting my time .. hello .. this is to justify what i say is true and dun simply say it out .. come on people .. u could give me better answer .. the questions were simple .. soo at the end of the day .. Penang Heritage needs a revamp in branding itself .. no wonder we kenot compete with other tourist destination .. and instead of being selfish .. the whole heritage enclave needs to promote itself as a whole .. not seperately .. soo as a PENANGNITE .. i do hope Penang heritage will be famous to the whole world ..

here are some heritage area of Penang ....

~ heritage of the sea ... ~

~ heritage of the road ... ~

~heritage of the lorong ... ~

~heritage of worship ... ~

~ truly MALAYSIA .... ~

i know i am a living heritage
xoxo

~aL~

thesis ... thesis thesis ... GO AWAY

2009-04-05T16:54:00.003+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. a normal week is what i want .. but in my life .. there is no such things as normal .. i soon realized that everything can change in a blink of an eye ..

college life has never been soo fun .. i guess when its final year .. u play like there is no tomorrow .. we had monopoly .. cooking .. and hanging out all the time .. before and after class .. and at the end of coz we work our ass of the assignment .. *thesis ... thesis thesis ... GO AWAY* the MQA is finally over .. what is that .. basically is just people coming in and audit our faculty .. soo we had to go for extra classes .. be extra hard-working and survive thru the interview .. well .. its finally over .. and what i need 2 do now is to finish up my thesis and assignments .. its piling up very very high ..

a friend or shud i say classmate .. well .. FRIEND .. since we do hang out .. jus out of a sudden say goodbye .. as in he is not goin to continue to come 2 class anymore .. and no .. HE IS NOT DEAD or bed ridden .. *touch wood* .. he jus needs 2 go back to his hometown and help his father family business .. why ?? because his dad is sick .. i feel soo sad for him .. when he say goodbye to us .. all the uneasiness of talking to him or what he used to say or behave in front of me or all the hatred .. ALL GONE .. now i jus feel realli sad for him ..

being sad .. a lot of people pass away .. esp my friend's grandma .. god bless their soul .. to think bout it .. i will always rememba the times when my grandma pass away .. that day .. i will always think of that day .. it is goin to be always in my mind repeating itself everytime someone grandma die .. and i would think .. what would happen if she were here today ?? will she be happy to see what i hav done & accomplished ?? will i be a different person if she is still alive ?? everything happen for a reason ..

enough of sad moments .. here are some pictures from my friends gathering .........

~ cashless MONOPOLY ~

~ ROYAL FLUSH ~

~ normal cam-whoring pic ~

~18 SX ~

~ Imel COOOKING ... buy 4D ~

~ leisuring .. while the girls were cooking ~

~ FOOOODD ... YUMMY !!! ~

and at the end of the day .. its what u keep accompany is the most important ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

normal week ..

2009-03-25T02:04:00.005+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. as the drama continues soo is life .. and times goes by realli fast .. at a blink of an eye .. its already end of Mar .. i need to do my thesis, assignments and also tonnes of things that need to be settled .. but most of all i realise that i can hav a normal week where everything is smoothly ..

i would say that college is again college .. the lecturers the things are still the same but .. its the friends that make it somewhat unique .. now we hav a 2nd house which is CI .. we visit there soo often till it is named our soo called 2nd house .. and then part of it .. is getting fat .. the food .. nva i realised that iM could cook .. *shocking* .. but she does make eatable pancakes .. since she might be reading .. it was extremely delicioud .. part of the getting fat make me wanna go to gym more often .. and since now my gym kaki is back .. soo i would go more often .. and loose the fats .. hopefully .. it is always very boring to exercise alone .. there is no one to push you and there is lack of motivation .. furthermore i usually go in the morning only .. i wanna go evening but i am jus too horrified by all the different social groups and hierachies in the gym .. its like typical HIGH SCHOOL .. soo SIS i am counting on you to bring me back to evening ..

the weekend i did nothing much except went out with few friends .. i saw some old high school mates .. and found out that one is married .. *CONGRATS* .. and then i went to this experience meet in SGM .. overall it was realli a good session .. all was good but the ones that will let people talking for months to come .. is definitely the one where the guy JUMP OFF from his 3rd floor apartment without realising .. when he said that .. u shud see everyone face .. *shocked*

finally i jus wish that i will be more hardworking .. more motivated and wishing that every week there will be less drama ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

ps : some pictures .....

-high school friends-

-MariOn-

live and fake drama

2009-03-17T00:09:00.004+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. basically college is still the same and gym is pretty much gym but with more attitude .. and when i my com was spoil i realised so many things bout live and fake drama and definitely bout friendship ..

things happen and it happen .. and its either i did something very bad to people that i got treated like that .. what did i do wrong .. i help out .. i was there to listen .. i try my very best to go out and be happy but i guess its still not enough .. and people whom i tot i could trust .. well .. they misuse it .. and here i am .. thinking bout who are my real friends are and thinking did i did something soo bad to you that you hav to use this way to payback .. and i realise .. that zebra will nva change its lines .. a zebra will always be a zebra .. and how much the person change on the outside .. if he nva change the inside then its still the same .. and the tension .. i dunnow .. maybe i am just being dramatic but things happen to make me realised that its not easy getting good friends .. and i do miss my good and best friends ..

afta having soo much drama .. last weekend i went to this musical drama production conducted by my god mom .. i would say i go there to help out but i dun see the helping part .. besides getting to know more people and be the chauffer .. i went there just to see the show .. meeting up with ex-teachers and goss bout my alma mater .. and i get to say it was a good show .. altho there were some funny moments and some weird acting with all the lip synching .. its a school production .. and it came up to be such a GOOD enjoyable musical drama .. and its the 1st time they done this .. soo it was very good ..

it makes me think of the moment where i perform with my god mom .. thats how i got to know her .. and i did not do acting .. i did dancing .. not acting .. i am bad in acting .. me, iT, + gC .. it was realli a good fun moment where u would like practice everyday .. improving the steps and the part i like the most where i would get ready before performance .. i would say it was good performing with them .. and i guess why i dun realli perform anymore coz i could not find the right clique anymore .. therefore i am always in the back scene .. but someday i do hope i could be performing again ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

begging to ...........

2009-03-16T15:58:00.002+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. nothing much happened along this whole 2 weeks .. the long absence was due to the idiotic computer .. and now its getting there .. better .. altho there are some things that need to be done about it .. but now its running soo here i am updating ..

college life is still the same .. nothing much .. just that assignments are piling up .. and the thesis .. i can say that the com come back at the right time .. soo its bout time i get start the assignment .. nothing much happened in college .. and yes .. my friends went to singapore for the semester break .. as much as i wanted to go but the suddeness and the $$$ and certain stuff .. well singapore is not goin to sink yet .. soo i will go maybe one find day .. and that decission to go happen in jus one day .. still rememba my souveneir guys .. ~hehe~

gym is realli okie .. not to say fun coz i could not say that nowadays there are more "people" in the gym .. and everytime you want to go to class you need to be there super early .. wait for the door to open and faster rush in and secure the bike or your work out spot .. as my friend say .. is there a super sale in gym ?? if there is i dun mind .. this is jus working out .. and i could say being in the gym reminds me of the past .. some of the trainers use to be my juniour .. standing in one corner listening to what i say .. doing what i do .. they look up to my poise .. my class and my elegance .. but now .. things have definitely changed .. the tables hav turn .. i am not the player in the game anymore .. neither am i the cheerleading team squad .. now i am sitting down looking from a far, just like a spectator in the football stadium ..

i need to be back in the game again .. to be the queen who rule a mini empire .. the diva who can hav everything .. i want to walk proudly again, just like how i used to parade myself in the school compound and once again, as i put my delicate steps onto the floor, people from left and right will just pause and look at me with envy, some with hatred and some with love .. but as what britney would say ..

"love me, hate me
say what you want about me
but all of the boys and all of the girls are begging to ..........."

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

wish me luck nex week ...

2009-02-26T21:45:00.002+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. chinese new year was a blast .. i had fun the whole time .. enjoying .. the fashion show .. organising and ensuring it was a major success .. school was great .. with friends like these i am having a blast in my final year .. altho it was break up season .. friends is what we need .. but when the fun is there .. and the good comes .. there will always be something to ruin it .. and this week has proof to be a tough one ..

the last time i was this sad was i nva knew that soo many could happen in the matter of time .. as i woke up one fine morning .. i was awaken to the fact that my com was spoiled .. i could not on it .. and further investigation .. the mother board was totally screwed .. mother board .. the most important part of the computer .. and to repair it need a lump sum of money .. F*** .. as i heard advice from people .. all have different opinions .. and i realli dunnow .. at this time when computer is the most important thing .. coz i need 2 do my thesis and everything .. it spoiled .. SPOILED ..

to make matter worst .. my grandpa fall sick .. at the same day itself .. when i was having dinner with my parents .. eating .. chowing down old town toast bread .. my aunt call my dad .. she say that my grandpa was having diarrohea .. soo me, mom, dad went and see my grandpa .. but upon seeing him .. he was literally unconcious .. everyone agreed to send him to the hospital .. and in order to get him dere we need an ambulance .. WHY ?? coz he was too heavy and it was hard to carry him .. soo called the private hospital .. ask soo many questions then only send the ambulance .. luckily it was not serious .. if serious i tink he died ade .. choi choi !!!! soo enter hospital and found that there was a growth .. luckily it was not serious .. and could be operate .. pheww !!! one problem away .. at least one happy news ..

when i think that everything was over .. another struck .. my loan money .. afta owing me for almost/nearly one sem .. its still not hear .. so me and my friends went to speak to the school adminstrator .. and the "nice" person tell us that the loan will reach in JULY .. JULY !!! JULY !!! what the hell .. what the *&$^@ !!! by that time i also graduate and work .. stupid one .. called PTPTN and the lady say it was because the school has not submit our authorisation letter sayin that we still in studying .. soo .. whose fault is this ?? school or PTPTN ?? soo i could say i am officially broke for this whole sem .. how sad !! my last sem and the money will come after i graduate .. SIAO ..

hopefully nex week will be a betta week .. and thru all this .. i learn to be stronger thru every difficulty and somehow winter will always turn into spring .. soo wish me luck nex week ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

ps:- i will be less updating as my com is down and the laptop is a BITCH .. COULD NOT GET INTO WEBSITES AND ALSO MSN .. soo .. i will try to update when possible ..

break up season

2009-02-14T00:10:00.004+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. CNY comes and go .. the fashion show comes and go but i am still here .. and for the people who want to see the pics for the fashion show .. i am sorry coz i need 2 get the pics first .. they are scattered everywhere .. soo i promise in the next few entry i will post them up .. everything aside .. college is nva this fun .. and when everything is alright .. its break up season again ..

the semester is realli great .. good frens .. good company .. good food .. everything is well .. but the lecture .. OMG .. my 1st lecture is realli boring .. its realli boring .. case study .. and theories .. OMG .. and the worst part is like the hardest to understand of all the subjects .. "SHOULD WE LIE ??/THOU SHALL NOT KILL" and the theories goes on and oooonnnnn .. anyway 2nd lecture is not bad but .. hmm .. interesting .. always hav interesting things to tell us .. and hav funny ideas .. which leads to a lot of debate in class .. and making the class more interesting .. and the last lecture is also the same .. but the debate is among students .. and the worst part .. QUESTIONS .. yes lots and lots of them .. which is really bad for our brain .. and when every class ends .. brain dead .. well i guess its my final sem .. soo gotta enjoy every part of it ..

btw .. evryone .. its break up season .. soo does that hav bf/gf becareful .. coz somehow my inner circle of friends are breaking up .. FAST .. like mushroom growing afta a big rain .. as scary as it seems .. some are caused by other people and some just .. the bf is lil bit crazy .. anyway .. altho its break up season .. its also valentines day .. i was thinking of what to do if i am in a relationship .. i would bake a cake and decorate it .. soo whoeva is my valentine prepare to see a burning cake .. hahaha ~~ i rarely bake ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

ps :

~ HAPPY VALENTINES DAY EVERYONE ~

fashion show anyone ..

2009-02-03T14:54:00.003+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. its chinese new year again .. yay !!! it seems soo fast its already CNY .. of coz the usual CNY would be gathering .. eating .. and gambling .. well this is the normal routine .. and seeing ur once a year annoying cousins .. but the best part is collecting ang pau .. that is still the best .. it never dies .. haha .. but this year CNY i was realli busy doing the malaysian traditional costumes fashion show for the chinese new year open house in the heritage enclave ..

it was realli an experience .. since young i dream of doing a fashion show .. i kenot be doin the model since i am not that attractive therefore i am at the back stage .. the thrill is realli there .. from getting clothes done and fitting the models .. i shud say the models were realli good altho they were new and nva done any of this before .. and they realli give their best .. soo i shud say thank u to them .. malaysian traditional clothes were realli hard to find .. but i shud be thankful that i know people who know people that can get me the clothes .. at the end of the day i know where to get what .. afta getting the fitting done and practising done .. it was the real day .. i was realli nervous .. my heart was pounding and i think i did not sleep well the night before ..

the day itself .. was realli adrelanin rush .. i woke up super early .. chant and wisk away to the venue .. practice few times and then off to get ready the models .. and the getting ready part was realli like a fashion show .. from making sure the hair do is the correct one .. fitting the accessories in .. sparying lots and lots of hair spray .. making sure that everything does not fall off .. wow .. i shud say wow .. the good chaos the labelling .. it was realli an experience .. and making me think that this is maybe the things that i want .. FASHION .. i can say when the models came out .. it was realli BANG .. the songs are perfect(thanxx ITCH) .. and to me altho there was mistakes make .. i still give the whole show 99 marks .. well there is always room for improvement .. and i do hope the audience love it .. the stage show was also very nice .. the performance was 3 parts .. and i shud say that the whole thing was realli a success ..

throughout the whole thing .. i get to know more people .. and make friends .. and also learn a bit more and help me to think more and learn more about soo many things .. i wanna thank everyone for helping and involving and making sure the whole thing such a smooth process .. till then ..

have a bless year ahead ..
i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

have a MOO MOO and prosperous year ahead

2009-01-25T23:48:00.003+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. class has started and the time-table no matter how u beg and bargain and change .. its still horrible and ugly .. and my group of friends in college is starting to have lunch and breakfast again .. before the class and assignments coming in .. the best thing to do now is to hav loads of fun and enjoy the chinese new year ..

class is still horrible because the timetable suxk .. the lecturers and part timers are hard to pleased .. soo i guess we just have 2 live with it .. overall this time the class are realli fun .. the same group and the same people like my previous 2 semester .. soo more breakfast and lunch .. it's goin fat this semester again .. of all the fun .. there is something pondering me .. sometimes we tell people what to do and what not to do based on our own judgement .. and we might not agree with what the person is doing .. but still we advice and see how they kill themself slowly .. soo what can we do now .. instead of people thinking u as a good person .. people will think of u as a bad person .. because u disagree with that person .. soo shud we just keep our mouth shut or just leave it as it is ?? at the end of the day .. as long as u know u have done ur best then it shall be okie ..

before i end wishing my readers a very HAPPY CHINESE "NIU" YEAR TO EVERYONE .. have a MOO MOO and prosperous year ahead ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

when will the drama end ??

2009-01-20T01:22:00.001+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. last season on this-is-me .. it was one big adventure .. everything was soo chaotic .. from handling school work to relationships and soo much drama .. and now as the new year starts .. i decided that its time to make a change .. as what barack obama did .. he is now the 1st black president ..

nothing much happened except that i cut my hair like extremely short .. and it shocked everyone .. it is realli like soo short .. nothing 2 be shock bout tho .. i need changes and sometimes change is good .. since coming back from KL .. i need to clear certain things .. and when these things clear and decission make .. i guess i finally make certain decissions .. and when u think that nothing bad will happen .. some drama will happen and ruin it .. and when this drama happen .. its the same thing repeat .. soo when will the drama end ??

anyway .. schools started and the time-table is horrible .. from night class to sat morning class .. horrible but to think bout it .. it will be the final semester for me .. afta that it will be a whole new ordeal for me .. different people .. different environment .. but now .. i jus wan to enjoy my whole studying life .. and enjoy the company that i have ..

this season on this-is-me .. fashion show .. more drama .. and definitely more pictures ..

i know you love me
xoxo

coming to you ..

2009-01-17T13:22:00.003+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. coming to you on this is me ..

new drama ..
new hairstyle ..
new adventures ..
new banner ..

the preview for the new banner .. stay tuned for more .. JAN 20

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

say goodbye to 2008 and welcome 2009

2008-12-31T18:56:00.003+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. they say nothing stays the same forever .. but the strongest friendship will remain .. i almost lost a fren over a boy and another over a rumour .. and i did loose some frens .. when they did something bad to me .. but now as the year is coming to an end .. i need to learn from the past and prepare for the future ..

as some of u will know .. i went to KL and it was tiring .. very very tiring .. but it was fun .. i had soo much fun eating all those fattening foods .. from RM40Itallian Pizza to cheese naan .. all was very very delicous .. and i had friends who make it soo fun .. from falling sick 2getha and shopping .. yes .. shopping .. the shopping was realli dissapointing .. the sales are not realli dere like .. no variety .. not much of nice things which are realli worth the money .. but being me .. i did buy some things.. realli little things only and most for my fren .. compare to my first few trips .. but i get to celebrate my CHRISTMAS dere and it was a whole new ordeal .. coz i nva realli celebrate christMas in KL .. and its the company that matters no matter where we are .. and i jus wanna thank everyone for the lovely presents .. i realli love it ..

and as the year coming to an end .. i guess its time for me to think of the past and think on how much i've grown compare to last year .. i hav such wonderful friends to begin with .. some realli stood by me this whole year and some realli change my perspective towards the person .. at the end of the day, u just need to know when to say move on .. and sometimes cutting off people is jus not a bad thing when they are soo troublesome .. which leads to a question .. sometimes we take friendship for granted .. and this year i realli learn a lot about friendship .. from trust to betrayal .. its all dere .. but the close ones will stick together no matter what .. and now i learn to value my friends even more .. its the little things that count and i realli hope that as frens we can be frens for a very long time ..

as we say goodbye to 2oo8 and welcome 2009 .. what will be install for us .. stay tune for next season of this-is-me

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

special entry

2008-12-29T13:24:00.002+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. this is not the last entry of this season .. this is a special entry dedicating to some one .. through out this year .. i learned soo much from this few people particularly that created tonnes of drama for me .. yes .. this group of people certainly did make my life as miserable as possible .. and there were times when i say .. ENUF .. and times when i jus feel like crying .. they will always there to ruin things and make sure that no one will enjoy anything but themselves ..

they taught me so much .. therefore i now want to share what they have tought me .. for all of u people who belives that money is the most important things in the world .. well .. i am not goin to say u all wrong anymore .. MONEY IS REALLI IMPORTANT .. throughout the whole drama .. is all related to money .. is money really that important .. do they have to stress money soo much ?? and with all that money .. they still can say no money .. soo .. which leads to another question .. how do they spend their money ?? is it okie if they spend their money on themselves rather on their loved ones ?? whatever it is .. MONEY IS THE SOURCE OF EVIL .. and i guess i just need to pray and realli believes that one day u all will change .. for now .. i jus need to suck in all the drama .. and pretend that nothing eva happens in front of people ..

they to taught me on how not to trust/help people .. why shud u have to trust people ?? why do u want help other people .. why ?? seriously to me if a friend need my help and i am able to help .. why not .. its jus soo easy but to them no .. just let them rot and die .. with this attitude .. this is so not me .. i was raise by my grandma and friends to be some trustworthy and helpful person .. somehow along the away .. with this evil force killing my core .. i guess i shud just follow the evil path .. and just ignore all my friends .. of all the drama that happened .. i wonder where all this wil lead to .. not something bad i hope .. and i really really want everything to be okie .. you already ruin my teenage till my college life .. dun ruin other half of my life anymore .. dun ..

i know this sucks
xoxo

~aL~

once over ...

2008-12-28T23:19:00.002+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. assignments - assignments go away .. and its finally gone .. from burning the midnight oil to having not enough sleep .. its done and here comes the holidays .. its soo exciting ..

once the assignment done .. STIMBOAT .. CLUB .. SHOP .. and also not to forget the bloggers meet .. yes that's pratically what i did .. bbq stimboat was soo fun with all my coursemates .. good food and good company .. what better things that u can ask for .. a lot of jokes aand ridicule things thanxx to kH .. for being the clown .. anyway .. besides stimboat there is also the club which i only went once for afta soo long .. that was fun .. dancing .. and seeing how people will do once drunk .. hehe .. ESP JUDUT .. hahaha .. besides that i also went to QBM to shop with iT and jK .. jus to kia kia .. altho i was like dead tired and like wanna faint and yet still i went to window shop ..

and finally the bloggers meet .. the bloggers meet was realli an eye-opening event .. i get to see who is who in real life .. and some realli surprise me .. and since i am a self pro-claimed blogger myself .. some bloggers are realli super famous with super nice pics .. mine is realli dull and bored .. these bloggers are realli friendly .. the food was nice and the surrounding is also not bad .. overall it was a fun bloggers meet ..

of all the fun there will be drama .. and no i am not goin to say now coz to me i feel like its the worst betrayal of my life ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

ps. next entry KL - the last entry of this season ..

pre(santation) & ass(ignment) ...

2008-12-21T14:20:00.002+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. so many things have happened from assignments till celebrating my birthday.. college is soo fun with my college friends .. but as fun comes in .. assignments due date will jus ruin it all ..

i was soo busy with assignments and presentation .. it was like a nightmare .. this whole semester .. assignments wise .. i am always in my fren house discussing .. talking .. eat .. and just do every bits and parcels .. and this will last till the wee hours of the morning .. where i would come home .. sleep or goin for group meetings .. and the cycle continues .. ITS SOOO TIRING .. thats y i skip gym for soo long .. and i realli miss my gym .. i am goin to continue my exercise regime from 2day onwards .. i hope .. slowly one assignments and one more and one more come to an end .. i realli enjoy the company when we will talk bout soo many things .. and jus helping each other when we are lost .. and cooking 2getha .. hope u guys like my food .. it was soo much fun .. i felt soo lucky that we are in this clique ..

for presentation i think i did my best this time .. overall .. i did not bad .. coz i realli put a lot of effort in it .. and the presentation realli was smooth and everyone enjoy it .. soo applause to my group members .. altho there were times when i realli hated them and wishing that i was not in the group but overall all have their own strength and weakness .. and through that i guess we realli bonded and become friends .. friends that i know i can count on .. soo thank u guys ..

finally .. no more assignments until JAN 19 .. YAY !!! till then ..

i know i hate assignments
xoxo

~aL~

i am older

2008-12-12T20:17:00.004+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. i look back on how my life were when i was way much younger and how different everything is now .. and yes things are a lot different now .. everything is different .. and as u all know .. my birthday was a week ago .. and i realli had soo much fun in this world celebrating it .. but at the same time assignment due date are coming ..

this year my birthday was realli fun .. i celebrated with my friends and yes some do surprise me .. like surprise .. i tot it was goin to be a small ordeal but all of u make it soo fun .. and yes .. with all the assignments .. people might say .. hmm work 1st .. but hey .. its just once in a while and with all the stress .. i need to release stress .. and i had fun with u all .. it was realli a fun night .. i will always rememba what i did and will always tell myself not to get drunk AGAIN .. nothing ridiculous but still .. NO WAY I AM GOIN TO GET DRUNK AGAIN .. NO MORE ..

besides celebrating it was good goin out with friends that i did not see for a long time .. and some friends realli shock me .. like shock me .. when they celebrated for me .. how sweet .. thank u .. i guess as i am getting older i dun realli feel like celebrating because its like i am older .. and i dun like to get old .. who does .. but i am realli happy what my friends did for me .. and i realli appreciate it .. its just realli awesome ..

besides having a birthday blast i went for a camping trip .. and i can say living in a camp is realli a new thing for me .. it was realli exciting .. and most of the time i feel like the wind is goin to blow me away .. i nva bathe for 24hours .. the toilet is _ _ _ ... u think about it yourself .. but the camping trip was something new abd fun .. this outdoor activity is realli an eye-opening for kids as well .. they are city kids who nva see the beach and also sleep in camp .. they were screaming with joy when they saw the beach .. overall the camping trip is realli fun ..

and finally i can update this blog now because i left only one assignments ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

ps - thank you to everyone who wished me .. celebrated with me .. for all the nice cakes and lovely presents .. THANK YOU !!!!

look back ..

2008-12-07T04:19:00.003+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. today is a special entry as it is my birthday .. yay !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF .. i feel soo old today .. soo matured .. which i am not old yet at all .. next post only i will tell about how i celebrate .. for now i reflect back on how much i changed and how much i've grown .. but today also reminds me of my beloved grandma death .. she pass away a day before my birthday 8 years ago .. somehow this year i feel soo emotional .. and somehow i remember her soo fondly this year .. not like i don't but this year its more .. i will always pray for her in my prayer every year .. i just got back and ..

as i look around the space i am in .. things do change soo much .. i still stay in the same house but everything's changed .. the space i am in now is where i used to sleep eat study .. now its a common area .. i still rememba how she would cook my fav dish every year during this time .. the fav dish which i nva get to have anymore since her passing .. how i wish i know what was the ingrediant .. no cakes but there is red eggs and "lam mee" .. no beautiful presents .. but she always managed to get small mini toys .. no fancy party .. but it was only me and her and my bro .. i rememba still playing monopoly and i get to see late night movies and drink sarsi .. when i was a kid people can actually trick me into doing anything for a can of sarsi .. it was the happiest days in my life .. i feel that all my wish will come true .. and everything will be alright even if the earth falls .. well i was a kid back then .. somehow my world changed once she passed away .. that day when i watch SITI won JUARA LAGU .. and afta that .. i was thinking on how she would do the same things for me again that year .. but i nva get to eat the eggs .. the noodle .. and the fav dish anymore .. afta that things has evolved ..

but yet things has moved soo fast and now i stop a while and look back .. looking back at my past .. since she passed away .. things realli have changed and i am thinking how happy she would be if she sees me grown up soo much to be who i am today .. i also would pamper her with what i have today .. and say THANK YOU TO HER ..

"With no words at all
So old but young
In love I fall so deep
My precious love
Sent from above
Gotta thank you, gotta thank you" - MY BABY

somehow tonight i think back of her .. her laugh .. her voice .. HER ..
i miss you
xoxo

~aL~

supper trouble ..

2008-12-01T16:34:00.003+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. it was a fun and yet somber mood .. i been to wedding and funerals and juggling my school work and SGM .. i still hav soo many decisions to make and now time is the essence .. and luckily i have frens to help me along the way ..

this 2 weeks has been soo hectic .. from late night suppers to group projects that need to be submitted .. i guess i am pretty much occupied .. assignments due date are coming and yet there is soo many things 2 add .. soo many points 2 be written and yet .. in the middle of the night .. lets say .. hmmm .. 2am .. yes u see me right .. 2am !! my college frens will come and ask all us out for supper .. and then we will talk and discuss how horrible our assignment was and how to do it .. looks like talking in SKYPE is jus not enuf .. i nva had such late supper .. i dun eat .. my friends eat .. i just take a few bites out of my friends food .. i am on a diet and this is not helping me .. coz i have been quite lazy to go to gym .. coz i am soo tied up with assignments .. but i do try to make it to my fav instructors classes .. but i shouldn't anymore coz that instructor is realli soo ego ..

along the way i realise that sometimes we compare to much .. seriously everyone compare .. from which western food is the place is the best or which sushi joint has the best and cheapest sushi .. we compare .. we are human afta all .. and with that .. i would like to say .. THE GRASS IS ALWAYS GREENER ON THE SIDE .. but sometimes its just soo sad to see how the compare get way out of proportion and become an arguement .. arguement that hurt me soo much .. hurtful that it is life still has to go on .. its all about time .. 8 more months to go .. 8 more months and then i will start my working life .. 8 f***ing months .. enuf said .. maybe this arguement happen 2 much until i am just bla about it .. like it will happen every end of the month .. i just know that i know what i need to do and i am going to do it ..

and on another note .. i went camping yesterday .. and i will blog about it later .. not today coz i need to go do my assignments .. i think he is calling me now .. and asking me to put more effort into it .. and i tell him i will get into it when i am finish watching the hills and updating this blog ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

life is not that simple

2008-11-18T16:04:00.004+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. i learned soo much bout people .. betrayal and giving people space .. and with soo many assignments pilling up i just wish that there will be no drama .. but my great-grandmother passed away .. and now i realised that life is not that simple ..

afta my great grandmother passed away .. the next day itself .. i attended my cousin wedding .. the funeral was my dad side and the wedding was my mom .. and the wedding was normal .. typical chinese wedding .. very simple and nice .. i got to see some of my cousins .. some are still very irritating and some change soo much in just one year .. i jus see them once in a year .. and to make matter worst .. these relatives will ask the questions that i hate the most .. why aren't u in a relationship because my bro has one ?? why why why ?? and i would answer them .. study comes 1st .. but in my brain is why shud i be in a relationship ?? why why why ?? and how sure ru all that i am not in a relationship ?? thank gowd i only see my relatives once in a year ..

besides attending all these funeral and weddings and party .. i also need to do my assignments .. and time is also running out .. and somehow the assignments might look simple .. its jus soo hard to understand what the lecturer wants .. i need 2 be more motivated .. i shud be lucky that i have friends and team-mates that keep pushing me 2 do .. thank u 2 them .. and soo fast once i submit all my assignments there will be holidays .. i guess we are more thinking on the holidays rather than assignments .. not only that .. i have the manwhore back in the house .. which i can say is pretty annoying .. sometimes i just wish he was far away studying .. no offense .. but u come back and demand everything .. everything must be in ur needs and wants .. and the nagging and the mess that u make .. gowd !! now i have 2 fight to use the com to do my assignments ..

besides that .. i can say that i am a lil confused .. on one hand is something that its obligation but on the other hand is what i want .. soo shud i force myself to do something that i am not fond off because of obligation ?? or shud i be doing the things that i want and just let time decides ?? sometimes its soo hard to choose .. in another unrelated things .. i seriously hate friendster .. somehow i lost all my friends .. so now i think i prefer facebook rather than friendster ..

i know u love me
xoxo

~aL~

of people and death ..

2008-11-13T01:36:00.003+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. my college life seems to be fine .. getting along with college mates watching movie .. having lunch/breakfast .. and also studying at the same time .. relatonships on the other hand seems to be getting harder .. but i found out that sometimes things are not as easy as it seems ..

sometimes in life we meet people who cheat/betray and pretend to be the nicest thing in the whole world .. what to do with these people ?? ignore them .. well i guess the best way is just let things go flow by itself .. no matter how bad it is .. as my friend always say "KARMA" .. we dun undersatnd why people can betray u .. but sometimes this is to let u see that in this world .. there is this type of people .. people who treat u as friend and then on the back .. KILL U .. and if the friend dun even treat u as a friend anymore .. its time to give urself the space that maybe ur friend wants .. when the situation is bad .. its good to walk away and let things cool off 1st and maybe settle it later .. i also learn a valueable lesson this week .. in life .. no matter how good ur .. u have to be selfish .. yes .. selfish .. not all the time but during certain times we need to be selfish .. to ourself .. dun let other people treat u badly for being who you are .. dun let other people take u for granted .. people perception will always be dere .. soo either u join them or be one of them ..

but at the end of the day it is important to find a group of friend that u can trust and support u .. and sometimes we might find it in the weirdest place possible .. but i guess in life people come and people go .. it is important to find people who will stick with u no matter what .. that is more important ..

on the other unrelated part of my drama .. i am quite busy this past few days coz on one hand my GREAT grandmother jus passed away .. gowd bless her soul .. soo my aunts and uncle came and there is lots of eating and gathering .. eating good FOOD .. realli delicious good food .. soo there goes the diet .. and its fun to see all my uncle and aunts gossiping and making jokes .. not only that its fun to see how one death can introduce me to a whole new relatives whom i nva know existed .. finally ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

college musical 3 - final year

2008-11-05T23:47:00.005+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. i found out bout soo many things and yet to end all the drama .. all i need to do is to confess and talk and solve the problem .. but i soon realise things was not as easy as it seems to be .. the weekend was fun but busy .. woke up at 5am to help out at this event .. WORLD DIABETIC DAY .. and it was fun .. got a free health check and i am ........ HEALTHY .. yay !! not only that tonnes of freebies ..

college is getting stressful these days .. with so many things to do .. for starters our coursework .. it might seem to be easy .. but i need to put my ideas into words which is seem to be the problem .. i realli need to put more effort .. and to make it even harder .. as hY* would say .. everytime there seems to be a new thing to be add into the coursework .. if not points will be deducted .. soo its either do or die .. but now all i need is to motivate myself to work even harder .. I NEED MORE MOTIVATION .. for the main course i have my group projects which i dunnow .. i think i am goin to say something .. voice out on things .. it is crucial .. very very important .. but of course me and my classmates did have some wonderful time .. we went to watch HSM3 .. which i feel was good .. but compared to MAMMA MIA .. hmm ..

HSM was a fun movie .. i found some nice catchy tunes , interesting dance moves and the ending dance reminded me of the 1st movie which i used the choreography to perform with dT and Kw .. overall the movie was a sing along and adoring at TROy and GAbRIELLA .. and afta watching the movie .. me and my classmates start to have our own version .. yes .. imagine class half way .. and then we start signing and dancing in college .. and the title of the show will be ~college musical 3 - final year~ .. hmm !!! SINGING along TO PEST,SWOT & PORTER 5 FORCES .. *immmaaggginning* hahaha that would be fun .. right ?? gowd NO ..

as i am balancing well my college life .. i was terribly ill .. running nose .. cough .. fever .. u named it .. and at this time .. i get to watch tonnes of free movie thanxx to the manwhore .. he install something .. and wow .. and thru that i get thru my sickness week watching LEGALLY BLONDE 1&2 .. MEET THE SPARTANS .. 300 .. P2 .. THE REAPING .. hmm what else .. MAMMA MIA .. HOUSE BUNNY .. i think thats all .. yes .. DEVIL WEARS PRADA .. some are old movies but are quite nice .. i guess its good to fell ill once in a while .. get to watch soo many movies .. and i am stil waiting for my TVB shows .. buti must be doing my coursework .. and do it NOW ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

talk .. dialogue .. speak .. whateva its called ..

2008-10-27T20:40:00.003+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. college is getting very stressful .. but somehow its college .. i mean i am a student and this is part of my life and as i realised that college can be stressful but the people around you will make u even more stressful ..

as college getting stressful .. me and my classmates planned a stimboat/house warming party .. it was realli fun .. GOOD FOOD .. and good company .. the whole night it was all about eating and as quoted by me .. EAT NOW GYM LATER .. *hahaha* it was me who ask hY* to buy all the vegetables .. if not .. there will be no vege also .. pics will be up later .. and u can see how many food and pictures that we took .. besides having fun .. "it was time to get serious" .. quoted by MeL* .. as i am getting ready for my proposal title and companies to do .. and one of the UK lecturer came and gave us a big talk .. it was supposed to make us clear bout our FInal Year .. and he did make it clear but harder to get good grades in the process ..

besides all the things that i have to do in my college .. i still have drama in my life .. i did something wrong in the past and it has come back to haunt me .. and as what people will say .. KARMA .. yes i did that mistake .. i am only human afta all .. and i am sorry for that .. it was just me being a whore thinking .. not thinking straight and not being smart and doing the dumbest mistake .. and i am sorry for that .. i realli am .. i hope by talking to the problem then we can solve the problem .. not only that ..

i think sometimes when we put soo much trust on people and the person did someting behind ur back .. u always feel betrayed .. its all about trust .. i tell u things means that i trust u but somehow u jus .. RUIN IT .. altho ur piss and damm angry .. secret is still secret .. for that one moment .. i realli tot .. what a shadey person ur .. but somehow at the end of the day .. to keep the friendship we must talk and solve the problem .. no point listening to other people and have the whole drama unresolved .. so DIALOGUE again .. to understand the whole situation then we can finally resolve all the issues ..

and the friends that get u annoyed is the one that always use the word friendship .. being a friend is not an obligation .. i did my best to help u .. so stop being soo annoying .. as a friend i dun mind helping u .. thats what friends are for .. but somehow .. if push it too far then it became very frustrating .. i understand that u were having a bad day but .. sometimes we also must think bout other people as well .. and i already tried my best to be there and help u .. but somehow u push it till the extent that i am writing this .. till then speak the things that need to be speak and less on the things that are no need ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

what to do

2008-10-17T17:08:00.004+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. with soo much things to do in life .. i am soo pre-occupied nowadays with enjoying and having a blast with my friend .. but now college are bout to get serious .. and nothing is harder than all the assignments .. and yet decissions have to be make on what to do with obligation vs feelings and also bout college ..

assignments are piling up .. and the worst part .. DISSERTATION .. what to do ?? what to do ?? and to make matter worst .. i have the strictest lecturer .. GULP !!! but at least there is the motivation to be extra good .. right ?? and yet off all the assignments there is bound to be drama .. sometimes i dun understand certain people .. we are in the same team and yet i feel like you are an alien .. am i an alien ?? do u know even know what is smilling and courtesy ?? and finally .. one thing that i must say .. sometimes we must follow the format .. format is just a reference for us in case the assignment lost its objectives .. migowd people .. just loose it .. and finally .. okie just one last thing .. TOO MANY COOK SPOIL THE SOUP ..

besides all the drama in college .. something have been worrying me for soo long .. and its just taking a toll on me .. its like obligation&guilt vs the things that u want .. its hard sometimes .. coz one hand is ur obligation but on the other u realli don't want to do that things .. afta much talking and reading and etc etc .. i realised i do not need to do things that i dun like .. true enough its a challenge .. but tried it .. force myself to like it .. and at the end of the day .. hate it even more .. and finally if i nva have make this decision i will leave it .. so do the things that you all like and enjoy ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

young and positive

2008-10-12T00:58:00.002+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. i was on9 and found BRIT BRIT new vid .. and its fucking awesome .. so can't wait for her to release her album .. CIRCUS .. BRITNEY BACK !!!

this is the britney video which i totally adore .. its from her latest single which is call womanizer .. the songs catchy .. but the video .. its the new and improve her .. i soo can't wait for her new album .. being a fan .. i guess i am eagerly waiting for her comeback .. and this time around .. it might be her comeback .. and in another unrelated to britney issue .. this will be one the pic for my new banner .. like BRIT i need a comeback .. out with the old and negative and back with the young and positive ..

i am goin to have 2 pics in the banner .. this one is me .. modelling .. and one more .. stay tuned for the new and improved me .. i can assure everyone will have their eyes rolling and head spinning ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

love me or hate me

2008-10-08T00:16:00.004+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. and afta i tot the whole internet drama was over .. they came attacking .. with that i loose a fren .. somehow of all the drama i need to relax my mind from the world of internet .. and what perfect time for my friends to come back .. i had soo much fun goin out with my friends .. the perfect outing would be dinner .. movie and finally sipping cocktails at a fancy club/bar/bistro .. and to goss all night bout the latest drama .. beneath all the fun .. there is obviously drama everywhere .. which i am not involve .. for people who say i am .. i am NOT .. and i can see that some people change .. for better or for worst .. i dunnow .. i am trying to stay out of drama .. just dun drag me in .. i am okie .. if u wanna share ur thoughts but dun corrupt me along the way .. its jus not cool .. sometimes .. only time will tell in a situation like this .. who is the evil one ?? who is the victim ?? who is the drama/dancing queen ?? which says .. i watch MAMMA MIA and i fell in love with it .. its damm nice .. and i would watch it again .. i always like MUSICAL ..

altho the poster say its a summer movie .. by the time the thing arrive in M'sia .. well it was a good movie .. the scene was fantastic .. full of laughter and sing alongs .. ask the guy behind me .. he sang practically out loud .. the one thing that i not realli fond bout .. PIERCE BROSNAN singing ..

not only that i am also getting closer to certain cliques and to my classmates .. its good that i am close with them .. i need more friends in times like this .. when assignments are pouring in and i can feel the pressure now .. being in a group which i can hardly communicate and gives soo much pressure .. i guess its a good PAD in the back .. they are not that bad .. good stress is good .. good stress can give u results and get u very far .. which leads me to another question ?? will u do something that u dun like just to please other people ??

i found a nice song sang by Lady Sovereignintro by my fren .. and i soo adore the lyrics ..

"Love me or hate me, it's still an obsession.
Love me or hate me, that is the question.
If you love me then thank you!
If you hate me then fuck you!"

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

to be mature

2008-10-01T17:18:00.004+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. of all the joyous occasions that happen .. there is things that will just ruin it .. and afta i tot that my whole internet drama is over .. but i guess things has not yet become worst .. i dun get this people .. esp this kenneth and abigail .. what is wrong with you .. what did i do to you all ?? seriously ?? did i killed ur brother in gym ?? if u dun like my blog go away .. dun threaten me .. and say mean things .. ur a shady person .. and somemore SITI .. ur from SINGAPORE for heaven sake .. what is ur problem ?? my business is my business .. ALL OF YOU SIMS WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME ??

from all the drama i can see that there is this few people who came and help me .. thanxx FAB and FAG IN DRAG .. whoeva u guys are .. thank YOU .. can i meet you guys ?? coz i think u guys are cool .. maybe we can meet up for lunch or something and goss bout EVERYTHING .. besides them there are also friends that help me morally .. i guess in time like this .. we realli can know who ur friends are and who u can trust .. and to my REP .. u obviously done a good job .. but now i want people to say good things .. if the SIMS say any bad things jus leave it .. we need 2 grow up and move on with our lives .. if people dun wan to move on .. no matter how much we say or do .. things kenot be done unless one party be matured .. and its time for us to be mature ..

besides all the drama .. a bunch of guys from KL came .. which is my friend friends and we hang out .. they are very cool but sadly it was raining thruout the 3days they are here .. thats sad .. coz they nva seen PEnang .. sad but come again next time .. i will definitely take u guys around again .. not only that all my friends are back .. and i so can't wait for all the outings that are fun .. its important to have friends with good aura .. esp at times like this ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

ps: SELAMAT HARI RAYA .. MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN

when i was away

2008-09-29T12:37:00.005+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. afta soo much drama that happen i guess i just stop writing for a long time .. soo sorry for that .. but i am back with soo much to write and soo much to see .. when i was away from blogging .. me and my college friends are getting to be very close .. not all but certain people .. and its soo much fun when i have good friends to help make boring class soo much fun .. but assignments are coming and its a bummer .. coz its soo hard but this is our final year .. evrything is hard in final year .. and its good to have friends that u can trust on ..

but sometimes i just can't understand certain things .. for example .. people who drink .. yes i mean like alcohol .. i mean .. i drink .. when i am with friends and when i am partying but i know when to stop and do not drink overboard .. as in get drunk and be crazy .. soo its all about self controlling .. how to control yourself and not to drink too much .. its very troublesome when ur drunk and start behaving as if ur bout to kill urself .. if u urself suffer then okila .. but the people around you also have to clean up the mess .. and why wanna bother taking care of ur health when u just ruin it urself .. WORTHLESS k ?? soo people .. dun drink and be nuts ..

and for another things .. i also can't understand people .. these are not ur things soo dun touch it dun use it .. its not urs .. jus dun be near it .. even if u want it .. can u ask ?? where is the courtesy and saying please .. the fucking worst part .. afta i FOUND OUT .. u somemore dare to say that u did not do it and create a scene .. screw you .. what is wrong with you ?? can u learn courtesy and respect .. and u somemore dare to say that ur the wise one .. hmm .. clever !! we do need one more idiot in the society .. there are too many idiots in this world already ..

in another fun and happier story .. i can say the word work hard, play hard .. its soo correct to me .. coz i do work hard and i also even harder .. haha .. so far i attended a wedding .. few party and also a mooncake festival .. and SGM held a mooncake celebration/lantern night for kids .. it was soo fun .. the whole building was without any lights .. the things that help us to see is lantern .. and u can see kids screaming and enjoying themselves .. talking about mooncake i am addicted to this TVB show MOONLIGHT RESONANCE bout mooncake also .. and the drama .. intense ..

~LANTERN NIGHT~

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

things has to get worst

2008-09-13T10:07:00.003+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. finally the internet drama is over .. praying that its over .. i guess things has to get worst before it can become better .. whoeva it is .. its just non important and i just dun care anymore .. thank all my friends who have supported me .. THANK YOU .. all ur comments are truly appreciated ..

college was just plain .. all the classes started and it is soo boring .. but thank gowd for the company .. "MSN" and talking is what keeping me awake .. btw one of the lecturer got ChIcken Pox .. we are jinx .. last sem there was one .. and now this one also .. the best part we have holidays and time off .. the worst part REPLACEMENT(if there is one) .. GULP !!! my friendship with my college friends .. it get off to a bad start but now .. everything seems to be on the right track .. me and my close friends in college are starting to have fun before the assignments come .. and yes .. we do know how to have fun .. from lunch to karoeke-ing .. its the good life .. my new team mates are also fun .. the gals are cool .. we talked a lot .. but the guys .. EMO GUY .. relax a bit la .. no need 2 pull long face and stressed bout the project .. altho yes its very important .. but relax ..

in another drama .. it also become better .. i think so .. but its like a hurricane here .. one day its very calm and the next .. strong winds and lighting .. still .. what has done is done .. nothing can be changed .. i realise nothing can be changed .. sometimes its very frustrating .. still i have my gym to help me to release stress .. i like all my gym class .. it was soo fun esp last Fri .. i saw this cutest person in whole gym .. i immediately went in to another session when i finish my RPM .. and now my body is aching badly .. but it was all worth it .. i love the class and i have someone to drool .. now i need to loose the weight .. to proof to EVERYONE that i can do it ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

KENNETH@ CHICKEn

2008-09-10T00:55:00.002+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. this entry is written in the middle of the night when i am damm exhausted and damm pissed and specially to a dear "friend" ..

dear KENNETH SIM .. who eva u are .. GET THE FUCKING HELL OUT OF MY LIFE .. ur very free izzit ?? u have nothing else to do izzit ?? i have life .. people hav life .. i dun have that much time and energy to be wasted on people like you .. people who call each other names are either childish or u totally want my attention or u have no life at ALL .. FUCKED OFF .. BYE BYE .. this is my blog .. who cares if i am a FAG or slut or whateva names u wanna call me .. this is me .. soo SHUT UP .. u know what i feel .. i feel that u also are a FAG coz u dun even wanna show ur face .. u keep calling people names .. u dun have any balls .. what my friends say bout u is soo damm true .. U ARE A CHICKEN !!! soo KENNETH@ CHICKEn .. just save whateva dignity that u have left and leave .. dun bother come back .. bye bye ..

btw if u eva touch me or any of my friends soo swear me gowd .. i will haunt you .. i will destroy you .. and by saying that u threaten me .. if anything eva happen to me or to my friends or to my belongings .. you just have to wait and see ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

ps .. thanxx for telling me your name ..

time will tell

2008-09-06T23:21:00.004+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to the scandalous world .. college was nva this fun and dramatic .. the starting of school and there seems to be drama non-stop .. one problem and it could break or ruin a friendship .. and u get to see who ur true friends are .. sometimes in life we have to be selfish and be more self-centered .. i guess this is life .. not only that .. some things will change u .. and some things will break u .. too many drama .. i will go on a break for 3days ..

3rd day of college was soo intense .. when the spliting up of group .. i get to know more bout my group mates .. they were fun and funny and overall .. i am counting on you gals to make a good job .. well and also me of coz .. but to me i feel that we must step up the game and be good .. and thru certain things i can see that we are quite bond .. but i jus know them .. hope that this bond will continue .. class are so competitve nowadays .. but i am glad that i have trustworthy friends by side .. someone that i can trust since the 1st semester .. what bout the rest .. only time will tell .. i can't wait for wed for a whole new drama ..

besides that .. things are soo intense in the house .. from things i realise that why sometimes my auntie behave this way .. i also realised that nothing is more important than money .. its soo sad to see that this is the teaching that i have been learning all these years and now it seems to have take a toll on it worst .. worst in a whole new way which i will nva get to understand .. is this the right to do ?? a simple call to care and concern that hard to do ?? and issit soo hard to understand the other side of the story ?? is it ?? thankfully i have friends that i count on to make me feel betta and to care and concern .. i guess sometimes its the friends that most important in ur life .. closest friends that known me for soo long and understand me ..

not only that .. there is this fucking idiot that is on the net spamming my blog .. seriously who you are .. i dun care .. just get the hell out of my life .. i have to many drama to handle already .. and this is my blog .. my life .. my pictures .. dun like it just leave .. and fuck off .. u heard what my friends told u .. leave .. i dun need pathetic comments ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

two face people

2008-09-04T15:30:00.004+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. college started and everything seems to be goin to be fine .. the 1st day was loads of fun catching up over lunch and ice cream .. i soo miss my classmates .. the time that we spend together .. its fun .. some people change their style and some gain weights .. and for today i learn that my past has came back to haunt me .. and i realised that not only their apperance change .. their attitude change as well ..

earlier in my 2nd year i was in a group project but for this sem i do not wish to be with them due to some circumstances .. they are good but we just dun clique very well .. soo earlier when i was thru my last sem for my 2nd year i found a new group with my friends .. and i tot that i dun have to worry bout this altho there were setbacks here and there .. for today i learn that becareful with friends .. coz they might bite u back .. why can't u tell me we are not in the same group .. and then you with your shitty attitude .. u seem like a nice person .. and someone that i can trust and yet u just dissapoint me .. is it soo hard for us to work together .. and now i dun even wanna talk 2 u coz why shud i stand all ur shitty attitude and for what .. u dun even treat me as ur friend .. if u dun like me .. tell me in my face dun pretend to like me .. dun pretend to be friends with me and then treat me like shit .. i guess what u say bout urself is true .. "you are a two face people" .. i guess i must evaluate who are my true FRIENDS in college .. can this friendship survive ?? will i be able to trust him anymore ??

luckily i am more appreciated in other places .. altho my new group is people that i jus work a few times .. i am glad that they dun treat me shitty .. i guess i shud have choose my group properly last time .. and now i am praying that this sem will be over smoothly ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

classy and fabulous ..

2008-09-01T23:47:00.007+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. last season on this_is_me .. everyone has drama wether its with friends or with someone that we just knew .. sometimes u just need to sit back and let things solve by itself .. once in a while party and have fun with your friends ..

who knew prom nite was superb altho the preparation was horrible .. i did so called enjoy myself with all the hecticness of in-charging the whole event .. from rehearsal to the actual thing to negotiating with everyone .. from the banquet manager to the DJ .. i was very busy till i have no time at all to enjoy my food .. kinda suxx but i guess its part of the job .. at the end of the day .. everyone dressed up in coats and nice dresses .. and ALL look nice with their coats and dresses .. esp me .. i have two looks for the night .. one with coat and the other with a sleeveless silver sweater .. hey .. the theme is SPARKS of the NIGHT .. make up and hair done by APT .. and overall i look classy and fabulous .. the pictures will be about more on me and my friends coz i was backstage soo all the performance photos are kinda weird .. soo if u want more on performance go to youtube or go to any of my friends blog ..

ME & ALEX

ME & LING KA

CAMWHORING

On STAGE

THE PROM KINGS AND QUEENS (to Me all of them are WINNERS)

ME & HENG LOON ( he was my assistant)

ME & TRISH

ME .. ALL GLAM UP ..

ME & KOK BENG ..

ME & TRISH .. this is the only pic showing me wearing a COaT ..

ME & HAN YEE .. looking gorgeus darling

ME & CASS .. she is soo different ..

afta prom .. club the night away .. well .. what would prom be like without partying and booze .. *winks* and always be classy and fabulous ..

this season on this_is_me .. kG is BAcK .. and soo many family drama .. from Friends drama to college drama and to gym-ing session .. not only that .. u still have people and jackasses in this world of internet .. i guess this is the price u pay for being famous .. its all here ..

i know you love me

xoxo

~aL~

TRAILER

2008-08-31T20:00:00.000+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. coming to you on this season of this_is_me ..

PRom night ..
friends
college
and DRAMA .. does it chase me as much as i follow them ??

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

WISH ME LUCK !!

2008-08-16T00:30:00.002+08:00

aL here .. my party world is goin to begin ..
prom is in few hours time .. WISH ME LUCK !!
hopefully everything goes smoothly and it will be a BIG SUCCESS
and i look the best *wink*

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

ps.. CLUBBING CLUBBING ... FINGER CROSS

EXCITING

2008-08-11T23:35:00.002+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. sorry readers for not being updating but this few weeks was realli super busy with my SGM things and also PRom and also other stuffs .. its already AUGUST .. the month of AUGUST .. the month of OLYMPICS .. i saw the opening the other day and i would say i was soo assumed by it .. it was realli spectacular .. now i hope the prom night would be something like that .. hmmm .. think .. FIREWORKS + array of fantastic human graphic .. i must be kidding ..

the month were u realise that soo little time to complete my new year resolution .. its already half a year and i shud say this season was quite exciting .. so many drama .. things change .. life changes .. but at the end of the day i found out who my real friends are .. and set my priorities straight .. and also to learn bout soo many things in life .. but as the season ending .. there is bound to be more drama ..

1st of all i can't stand young kids who think they are the bullier or someone soo all mighty and powerful .. ps .. UR NOT !! ur just a small immature chicken dick head who knows better than to mess with me .. i have powerful frens in GYM .. and they will ruin u until ur head goes spinning and regretted that u did anything .. and surprisingly .. the way u act was soo manly .. but somehow where is UR BALLS ?? soo .. dun mess with me .. i will make it an affair that u will be ruin .. *wink*

2nd of all .. i dun understand rich BITCHES .. those that think that they are soo soo smart and could get away with anything jus because she pulls a face .. FYI .. ur just a CONTESTANT nia .. u nva win yet .. soo stop acting like a DIVA .. coz ur NOT .. what i say u listen .. when i say does not look good on u means does not look good on U .. FURTHERMORE the whole world say agrees to me .. and pulling ur face like the whole world jus died won't help .. and asking the boss to screw me won't help either .. it might be helpful to certain people but not me .. UR NOT SPECIAL .. i dun have to suck up to you .. maybe some people might but i dun .. and if u eva do it again .. dun say i din warn u ..

3rdly .. i understand that love is blind .. but somehow .. its not .. u have to use ur brains to think .. but since u mad up ur mind i guess as a friend i have to support u altho i will hate ur partner coz treating u like shit .. i done my best to advice and warn u and after soo many incidents u still listen and follow ur heart and stick to him .. all i can say is good luck and all the best .. if u need my help .. i will still help u .. but i will say .. "TOLD U SO" *thats mean*

stay tune for more drama next season .. new banner and also the layout ..
new season premiering SEP 1 ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

8 things to do

2008-08-05T23:24:00.002+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. previously i was seriously furious bout this person who say nasty comments on my blog .. but still karma .. and as people say .. it pays for being famous .. its when ur famous only u receive hate mails and threaten mails .. soo i guess this is what celebrity been thru .. i receive one and i freak out .. what bout people who receive tonnes of hate mails .. hmm ????

anyway its now AUGUST .. and AUGUST is final month before i am goin back to class .. GULP !! next semester will be harder .. tougher and more DRAMA .. soo this month i am gonna rest my mind, body and soul .. but still i have put up a list of things to do for AUGUST ..

1. LOOSE WEIGHT
2. pray more
3. hang out more
4. shop more for prom clothes(i dunnow what to wear)
5. cook more (no one at home and have been cooking like siao.. from italian to thai food)
6. get more money
7. settle a LOOOT of STUFF
8. rest more

8 things to do in the month of AUGUST .. till then

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

taste it to believe it

2008-07-31T23:41:00.002+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. i have seen soo many strange comments happen to my blog written by my close friends and vivid readers .. and i see how drama can be started and even an entire blog post written bout comments .. today .. i will only say one thing .. u have to taste it to believe it .. as of today only people who has an ID can put a comment on my blog .. yes .. due to some unforseen circumstances i will curse and swear at people today .. soo .. kids under 12 who is reading .. SORRY .. and congrats coz u will learn new vocab afta reading this .. here it goes ..

who the fucking hell do u think you are for writing such comments on my blog ?? fucking arsehole who is definitely doesn't appreciate people and art .. he most probably sit around at home all day and jerk off to some kinky porno .. the only art that he knows porno .. go outside and see the world .. if u hav been in ur fucking home then go to the outside world to know more people .. and get to know more fucking friends please .. i guess u dun have any fucking friends coz of ur fucking idiotic person .. and also he is also hav no fucking education at all coz he is soo fucking uneducated .. as my friend would say LANCIAO LANG .. if i know who is he i will ask all the INDO lanciao to fuck him and worst i will insert their heads in his arse .. and my friend would say u shud be banished into the deepest level of hell and rot in there .. enuf said .. btw if u have guts dun put annoymous .. BASTARD .. but as the sayin goes .. KARMA will strike u back .. that time it will be 10 times worst .. good luck in that ..

i know you can't stand me for being famous
xoxo

~aL~

GYM

2008-07-31T00:04:00.003+08:00

aL here .. ur one and source to my gym-ing world .. officially today it would be my last day at FS .. i totally heart FS .. altho some people might call it a cheapo or rip off or small or bad .. but its the best gym soo far i eva attended .. i first join this gym coz my sis insist me on teman-ing her .. but at the end of the day i go more times than her ..

usually my gym routine is Mon-Wed-frI .. on MoN i will go for RPM(i <3 his RpM the most) then body jamm(MOn Class can shake my tatass all i want) and then i round up with my abs express class(i laugh soo much, i think laugh realli can make u thin) .. and then on Wed i go for STePs(heR class is quite tough at 1st, but once i get the hang of it.. i totally lurve it) afta that i will sure go for FItBall(heart the trainer and the class) finally i would end my day with cardio on the threadmill and some weights .. on Fri i will go for RPM & body PUmp (i <3 him also but this guy is a totally "lan SI guy".. he nva smile at people, and totally is super boring guy but still i lurve his classes- he makes me fall in love wif Pump and RPM) thats my morning session .. i will definitely miss all those aunties with their goss and everyone that make my gym soo enjoyable in the morning ..

i will also go to gym in the evening .. thats where i go for RPM puMp and more RPm .. somehow there are more RPm sessionsss in the evening .. thats where i get to see "people" and their drama/hiaoness/whoreness/kia su ness .. still these people makes my gym more interesting .. coz i am like the hunter .. and they are the animals that i hunt .. *jk jk* and i totally worn out every night if there is J-Rpm .. his is the hardest .. can drop dead afta his class .. still i lurve it .. coz i know i am burning more fat .. and yes i will go for bodY balance(her class is the best class for body balance .. 15 hours later will be my last day in her class .. how i will miss her classess)

the gym is where i spend most of my morning there .. it is where i shower, dress up and my daily dose of caffeine in the morning .. afta joining this gym i woke up early to attend classes .. to go for all these morning classes last time to me will be impossible .. but still i have an objective in mind which is i pay for it .. i shud move my ass and go .. actually no .. its actually i wanna loose weight .. when i weigh the scale i feel happy coz i can see my weight reducing a lil bit at a time .. *haha*

afta today i will be another gym member .. but thannx gowd only for one month .. for sure i will miss FS and all of it craziness .. but rest assure people .. this bitch will be back in one month time .. till then

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

MaGaZine COVEr

2008-07-25T16:25:00.005+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous/modelling world .. well .. people do u all still remember the magazine cover that i did for HIPNOTIQ mag last year .. i was so proud of it .. and soo happy that i could be on the cover of a magazine .. here is the cover for last year ..

and click here for the rest of the pic ..

for this year, my dear friend, renowned photograher MR JOhn ItsuKo .. ask me 2 grace the cover again for the summer issue .. this time it is a 13page spread .. and of coz i say YES .. this cover u can see me RAW without any touch up and also for the pics .. so here it is the cover for this year ..

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want more ??
click here for the pics inside the magazine

~aL~

less dramazz

2008-07-22T23:55:00.002+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. last week was may-jah drama .. i had soo many issues that happen .. but this week i guess everything was over .. except for a few issue .. i think i just need time to talk and understand u more .. anyway .. the weekend was just normal .. going out with friends and just lazing .. soo this week .. less dramazz please .. the starting is jus good .. everything seems to be just normal and fun .. gym is FUN .. i feel i am addicted to the gym more and more everyday .. and i am bonding with my gym kaki-ss .. i am goin to miss the gym next month .. even goin and doin everything seems to be delighting me .. i actually woke up at 6.30am to have breakfast with my friends .. imagine 6.30am .. i think i am a lil bit crazy .. but hey .. its good to sleep early wake up early(i am not sleeping early) .. i need to keep this happy and fun loving mind till end of the week before i turn into a diva again ..

but on MOn i saw actual WHORES getting arrested near my house .. yes .. my house dere has a so called "resting house" .. anyway when i was having dinner finish .. i went home and to my shock i saw soo many people at the junction of the road .. it was like a perjumpaan of KPC KPC .. and soo being a pG .. u have every right to be KPC .. soo i walk along to the junction .. and to my surprise the cops were arresting china pros .. i saw some of their faces .. they look soo young and some even cried like mad .. but still .. this is life .. and sometimes reality is BAD !!! i do feel pity for them at a certain level ..

anyway before i end .. i need to say that its good to have friends that will stick by your side no matter what and understand and see things from both side of the story .. *mwAhxXXxx*

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

hell hath no fury for a bitch scorn

2008-07-17T00:29:00.003+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. its not even the end of one week and soo many drama .. omigowd .. can i last till end of the week without me crashing down and loose my patience .. if u read my previous entry .. i can say that realising things are bad coz i see the true colour of human nature .. it make me feel that certain people are actually not bad at all .. true enough these people will hurt u but at least they only do and say nasty things in front of u .. u get to see how bad they are and what measures u shud have with them .. but those with two face .. they are the ones that i shud be aware .. must put my guard up and protect what i still have .. i guess when these ungrateful bastards and bitches did things to me .. i shud say thanxx to them .. give them an applause coz i get to see their true nature .. nva believe whats on the outside .. it might be a manipulative b**ch on the inside .. its good that i see them now than later in life or when they betray and backstab u even more .. when i found out how these so-called friends bitch bout me .. the 1st thing i tot was .. REVENGE .. a lil bit but come to think of it .. why shud i ?? like what iT would say KARMA .. so i tot ..

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screw them .. why shud i care bout these people ?? i have better things to do in my life .. but still since i now know they true nature .. i will see them differently .. will treat them differently and will start to play this game based on MY RULES ..

- hell hath no fury for a bitch scorn .. u play with fire .. becareful coz at the end of the day YOU will get burn -

i know you bitch me
xoxo

~aL~

ps. and yes VIncE u can call me gossip byotch .. coz i am a damm good one ..

realising ..

2008-07-15T00:26:00.003+08:00

aL here .. ur one and source to my scandalous world .. i came to realise soo many things today .. i think today was a sense of me finding out the truthful face of people .. the reality of things .. altho it might hurt u but what doesn't kill u will make u stronger ..

1st of all i realise i must only depend on myself .. thats all .. whatever how close ur family, ur friends are .. at the end of the day .. i must stick up for myself .. i must defend myself .. i must depend on nobody but myself .. so what if no one want to help or gif a hand .. i know i have myself to depend on .. sometimes once in a while .. at least i have my best friends to depend and rely on .. what will i do if lost that pillar of strength and that pillar that will help me in times of need ..

2nd is i realise that people can change .. no matter how good they are on the outside or how good they are they treat u .. always watch ur back .. i should not trust people a lot .. sometimes they will make up story and lie and betray u .. and i tot this is only high school .. but as u grow older .. the more hurtful and bigger the betrayal is .. i am soo stupid .. why did i trust and believe in u ?? why

3rd i realise its very hard to forgive someone .. when the person hurt u and say bad things bout u .. its very hard to mend and assume that nothing happen .. its nva that easy .. once a glass is broken .. it is broken .. the scar will be dere .. i find it hard to forgive people .. i dunnow why .. if its small things then its okie .. but if someone hurt me till the very extent of making me sorry for knowing u .. then .. yes .. its hard for me to forgive people ..

and finally .. i realise there is nothing more stronger than the power of money .. money can break up a family and even build one .. money can buy soo many things but can it truly buy happiness .. NO ?? YES ?? the answer is NO .. but still some people .. i can see how money is soo important .. does it worth it .. *hahaha*

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

a dentist affair

2008-07-11T17:33:00.004+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. well .. i am in PAIN .. why ?? my teeth hurts .. as u see this morning i went to the dentist .. i dun like dentist .. seriously afraid of them .. the things that they do will make u beautiful but the gruesome pain and horror of the process .. for beauty right ?? NO ?? YES ?? i rather not gone thru the process but i did .. coz one of my tooth hurt soo i went to see a dentist(recommended by my mother) .. it was supposed to be on WEd but she was on MC .. soo i change it to today .. GOWD BLESS ME .. i was soo afraid .. the whole morning i try not to think of the dentist while doing RPM and PUMP .. i feel that the trainer wanna kill us .. the class was soo tough today .. either he is in a bad mood or i have no idea whats wrong with him ..

anyway afta gym i went to the dentist .. soo i was realli afraid .. was goin to chicken out but hey .. i have gone thru the ones in school .. remember the days when the nurse will come and check ur teeth .. i rememba mine .. the GREEN CARDS .. the cards that actually when called upon is a scary ordeal .. anyway this time i go there myself .. self inflicting pain .. well i have a few embarrass moments with the nurse coz i was to afraid concentrating on how to go thru the whole dentist process .. GULP !!! BREATH !!! i was thinking of what BALANCE class did last night .. RELAX !!! close ur eyes ..

as i sat there in the chair the dentist greet me .. she was very kind .. and was very nice .. afta checking on my teeth .. i have some may-jah problem with my gums and also a few teeth that need to be repaired .. it did hurt at times .. but the machine sound .. i nearly fainted .. she actually ask me to relax and not to be soo tense up .. i was in tears .. certain cleaning parts actually hurt like mad .. but for the sake of beauty .. she manage to clean it up .. and fix the problem .. hopefully .. soo now my gums are in pain .. hurtful .. as she say the gums are the may-jah problem .. she say its very serious .. therefore i need to practice this processes every time when i brush my teeth .. DAY & NIGHT ..

1. i need to use SOFT BRUSH .. (thing to buy)
2. i need to use sensivite colgate .. (another thing to buy)
3. i need to floss every time .. (more thing to buy and to do)
4. i need to gargle with salt water for 5days ..
5. i need to apply medicine afta the 5days duration ..

in conclusion .. take care of ur teeth ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

shopping to samaning

2008-07-10T22:51:00.003+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. sorry people for not been updating for a few days .. was rather quite busy .. meeting up with people .. preparing things .. selling things .. life has been pretty blissful .. not much of a drama .. as iT would say the reunion has ended .. everyone back to their own scandalous life .. except for jK & me .. well he will be leaving too in 2 weeks time .. i had tonnes of blast the past weekend .. from SHoppIng to SAmaNing and of coz nice Pg food .. i experience it all in one day .. one fun yet dramatic weekend .. from pareNts drAma to hot & steamy BBq nighT .. its all in one weekend .. hopefully this coming one will be as scandalous as this one .. but this week its all bout my SGM things .. the mega sales is back .. from GUEss to FCUk .. its all on sale .. WHY WHY WHY !!! why does when its sale time that i am broke .. WHY ?? *crying*

since i had a wonderful SAT .. of coz Mon is all bout
- pay my bills
- pay my streamyx bills
- pay my saman bills
- pay my indah water bills *it sound like destiny child - Bills biLLS*

btw .. my bro is back .. yes he went dere for not even a week .. and now .. my house is realli more cleean when he is not around .. enuf said ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

SPA anyone ???

2008-07-03T23:14:00.002+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. its THuRS and i can't wait for the weekends .. friends coming back .. food to be eat and place to go .. this few days its realli bout meeting up with my besties .. from mG to iL .. and wL coming back pretty soon .. catching up with them .. bout their lives .. it always fun to hear the drama from the other side of town .. but that kenot apply to mG .. for gowd sake she barely tell me anything .. usually i am the one that tell her stuff .. read my blog it will save loads of time .. but hey its more fun when i say it out coz i got all the actions and the way i say it .. my melodious voice .. *haha*

yesterday i went to this very cute and unique spa .. with all the scandalous affairs i need 2 rest and relax .. to me a spa is a place where u can sleep and massage and get free pampering .. this spa is more unique as in .. its all DYI .. there is no massage nothing except a bed for u to lie on .. well under the bed there is rock .. and there is cover thing that covers ur body till ur neck which is above u that looks like an MRI machine .. afta that the thing will warm up and u will start to sweat .. so i practically just need to sleep and close the MRI cover .. simple .. afta doin all the things .. i sweat like a LOT .. i can feel that my whole body suddenly releases soo many water that i feel soo thirsty till now .. the aunty say its good coz ur actually detoxing .. hmmm .. all the fats and toxic .. sounds good .. the most unique thing is they let u wear cute kimonos .. and the shop looks like a japanese theme shop ..

afta the spa, u still have to drink tonnes of water .. yes .. the aunty force me to drink until i am bloated before and after the spa .. as i sat down drinking water a bunch of people came in .. i was shocked coz i swear to u that they look scary .. and for a second dere i tot .. hmm its there goin be a robbery .. they practically barge in the door .. they turn out to be from the immagration dept who wants to catch illegal indo .. hello .. they are soo rude .. damm rude .. they just came in make a hell out of scene(without any warant) and left jus like that afta they fail to do anything .. migowd .. there goes my spa time .. talk bout relaxing .. afta spa i went to gym to sweat even more .. seriously .. nowadays i spend most of the time in gym .. i need to loose weight .. a lot of weight ..

and yes in another one unrelated things .. a friend of mine grandma and uncle passed away in a very unfortunate bus accident last week .. my deepest condolences to u .. and yes .. to a friend also .. good luck to u in ur test .. i will chant for u .. btw, i rememba i need to blog bout my friend got ditch .. well i am gonna save that for next time since this entry is rather long ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

just like old time ..

2008-07-02T11:03:00.003+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. my bro left for his tertiary education .. GOOD LUCK 2 him .. without him in the house .. i am quite peaceful .. my house seems to be soo peaceful that i jus wanna stay at home .. just like last time where i jus come home and do the things that i wan .. anything .. the quietness .. too quiet tho .. no one for me to lash out .. no one for me to scream and no one for me to push on .. the quieter days ..

since my bro is not at home i totally use the com all by myself .. when i wanna on9 i on9 when i wanna do anything i dun need 2 wait and share .. hmm .. thats seems to be good .. soo now i am realli fixing the com .. making sure that everything else works .. besides that i have more space for myself but somehow the house seems to be a lot cleaner .. realli ?? ask jK .. he notice it .. but still i am re-decorating it slowly .. one by one at a time ..

therefore yesterday .. kH, iL & jK came to my house to cook .. jus like old times when we were in form 4 &5 .. all of them will come to my house every Fri .. to cook and also to online .. soo yesterday we cooked burgers and mashed potato .. it was utterly delicious .. and it was fun coz we get to talk while eating the food .. i say i had a jolly good time yesterday .. not only that some juicy story were spill .. apparently a friend of mine got ditch by her friends .. thats pity .. but as what will iT say .. KARMA ?? will elaborate more on that later ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

happy yet sad weekend

2008-06-30T07:59:00.002+08:00

Good morning scandalous people .. prepare ur tea and "char siew pau" .. coz its a Monday morning and the weekend just ended .. well .. to sum it all up .. my weekend was a tiring weekend but i had tonnes of fun FUN fUn .. as u know the Johor people came .. and it was fun .. B was fun .. i google him up and turns out .. B was taken(dissapointed) .. good things are always taken .. heartbroken .. i am weird .. i dun even know B for one day and B is already mentioned in my blog again .. well .. B is goin to be history .. BYE BYE B ..

soo to cure my pain .. my friends came over for a sleepover .. jus like last time .. but this time .. we had booze .. kH and cH are terrible drinkers .. they drink not even 1% of alcohol and they had headaches and feeling sleepy .. soo the sleepover ended with me & iL talking and helping me search for B .. found B .. and iL found E .. hahaha .. soo we woke up early .. me & iL barely sleep .. and went to dim sum .. during the dim sum .. i had some thoughts .. which i tot a friend of my mine told me before .. "people nva change" .. in fact some change but some nva change .. wanna know more .. ask me .. and i will tell .. enjoy ur pau and ur daily dosage of fun loving scandal ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

beh-bye

2008-06-29T18:31:00.003+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. this weekend a bunch of SGM JOHOR people came and as host we took them out to play and at the same time PG & Johor exchange our ideas and tots(so called) during group study i was speechless coz the whole session was in Mandarin .. u heard me right .. i do understand but when u ask me to talk .. i have to sort out the words in my brain and i have to think for the right words .. u guys know what i mean .. the worst part some were in written language and they could not even translate for me(SERIOUS REVIEW) which then make me lost .. so i rather keep quiet and shut up .. overall i guess it was okie .. the people were great esp for one incident ..

u see .. there was this one person who glare/stare at me .. lets name this person B .. u know the ones that jus stare at u .. with that "beh-bai" look .. i was irritated and as courtesy of the host of coz i give B back what B gives me .. i "beh-bai" at B back .. anyway .. i have some bad feelings for this person the whole day .. thank gowd B was not in my group .. but still .. today B just sit in front of me .. today B did not stare nor glare nor beh bai .. soo i smile at B and B smiled back .. and B does look good when B smile .. whats wrong with me .. on SAT i hated B now thinking B looks good .. soo we talked and finally finally i found one person in the whole JOhor people who reply me back with ENglisH .. gowd bless B .. *hehe* .. and when the day ends .. we say bye bye .. for gowd knows how many times .. i even teach B how to get rid of curry stains .. hopefully it works .. the saddest thing was i did no get B contacts .. iT pls slap me when u meet me coz i have no guts to get B e-mail nor his HP .. soo people if u see me screw me up for all u one .. screw me .. am i dumb .. B is soo the type of person that i will liked .. it has all the criteria ..

i guess i am goin to cry tonight and wish things were different .. i am the queen .. and what did i did .. i am sooo dumb ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

good actor

2008-06-26T23:00:00.002+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. as you can see i have updating my blog frequently .. well with the drama goin on .. i need to feed my readers with all the scandals .. where do i start .. hmm for starters .. thanxx Dr. Bee for all the advice .. i am not sure if it works but hopefully it will .. its bout my sleepless nights .. but sill this is not goss .. today was okie .. i went to watch the happening .. not realli that happening .. dun realli understand but good hunky actor(MARK) .. the girl looks like the girl in the movie the sweetest things .. dumb and stupid ..

talking bout good actor .. i have a friend who is in the may-jah drama .. she is in KL .. and i feel that KL is seriously very very very scandalous .. anyway this friend of mine has a huge crush on this guy .. lets named him M(coz he is a moron) .. soo M practically rejected my friend coz he is a moron .. nuff said .. soo she moved on .. not to say moved on but found some better ones .. soo now .. this M is giving her another signs that he wants to be with her .. the problem is the signs are very unsure .. very unclear signs .. i feel that M is a good actor coz he is screwing up my friend happily ..

my advice for M would be .. give her clearer signs to show that u realli meant what u say .. not jus play play .. for once M shud be serious on the things that he do .. and tell her the signs .. and for the girl .. jus hav a good conversation with her .. its vital .. ask M the right questions and u shall have the right answers .. i am a love guru .. hehe~

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

sleepless world

2008-06-25T19:03:00.004+08:00

aL here .. my scandalous world is now temporarily became sleepless world .. why do i say that .. as u can see from my previous entry i did not sleep last night .. but still i have the energy to go to GYM .. yes GYM .. gym was okie .. i talk to my stalker today .. and yes .. he is not that frightening after all .. but the things that shock me the most .. was today newspaper .. it says that credit card are no longer allowed in petrol station .. WHAT THE FUCKING SHIT IS THIS ?? and why did they so .. soo that they will not suffer losses .. HELLO !!!! fucking aresholes .. u shud negotiate with the bank not jus issue it out without telling people earlier .. can businessman or people doing business be more considerate of consumers .. or what people can think off is profit .. yes i do admit as a business student i do agree that profit is important .. but do all of u went to ethics module before .. hello !!! brainless petrol stations .. AND MALAYSIA wanna be a cashless society .. BULL !!! what will the government do ?? soo far i have no blady idea .. but hey .. i have not read tomorrow newspaper yet ..

anyway afta gym i head straight to the bank to withdraw money .. mua need cash .. but seriously the money is not for me .. SERIOUS .. btw the bank is at bayan lepas soo i have to drove all the way to bayan lepas jus to withdraw money .. afta that i went to a talk in college(IPG-kH u shud attend the talk(it suits u soo much), chat with tH, watch the last episode of the NTV7 drama and goin out wif iL and kH later .. wow !!!! what the hell is wrong with me ???

yes .. i foresee a drama coming tonight ..
i know you love(the crazy) me
xoxo

~aL~

ps.. mind my language today, not enuf sleep can lead into talking foul languages ..

SLEEP

2008-06-25T05:46:00.002+08:00

aL here .. GOOD MORNING PEOPLE .. it is now 5.47am .. why am i online and talking to kG .. i am writing things now coz i kenot sleep .. turn left and right .. watch the most bored tv show and yet here i am .. not even a nap .. gowd i need HELP !!!

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

annoyed

2008-06-24T12:12:00.003+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. i am back again coz i woke up this morning and annoyed by some people .. some people who are bored or i dunnow what's wrong with his blady mind .. gowd how i wish u were the person that i went to taiping with but no .. ur totally a different person i guess .. anyway .. what u wanna proof to me by saying all the mean things .. what ?? but i kenot blame certain people who has serious attitude problem and also are soo conservative that he/she kenot accept certain things .. and to say that i wanna be hiao with you .. DREAM ON .. today is a nice weather to sleep .. go DREAM la .. even in ur dream also i will not be hiao with u .. u

PEOPLE we live in the 21st century .. wake up and be more open minded .. if ur an old auntie that have a mindset in the 1920s then be old and conservative but u .. we are supposed to be the new era where we accept everyone regardless of who or what we are ..

okie people .. this person read my blog .. and since all of u that reads my blog are my friends pls tell me what is wrong with all my pictures .. all of them from friendster to MSN .. tell me .. i shud put can u accept the pictures .. TELL ME ..

i know you love(annoy) me
xoxo

~aL~

Princeton .. Yale nor issit Oxford ..

2008-06-24T00:01:00.002+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. to kick start today scandal will be in GYM .. the place where i hang out most of the time .. the gym is addictive .. anyway .. i found out from tH that my fav PT is currently in a relationship .. but the part that surprise me was from my sis .. she told me that she heard 2girls/bitches were talking bout my PT (how i wish).. not my but one of the PT that i totally adore(not anymore) .. my sis told me that this one whore/byotch usually go to the PT class .. EVERY CLASS and jus ask PT to go to CAMERON with her .. i shud say the PT went coz i did not see PT arse for the weekend .. hmmm .. yes my sis told me that they will be goin this weekend .. weird .. and PT supposed to be IN A RELATIONSHIP .. scandalous enough .. SIS !! if u read this i am counting on you to get me the MSN .. hehe

practically thats only the scandal that i could think off .. my life has been realli relaxing .. i got things to do but somehow i am taking it slowly .. S-L-O-W-L-Y .. i dunnow why .. thats y i took soo long to update the blog .. i dun even feel like to elaborate but sometimes certain things are better left the way it is .. i dun feel the urgency yet .. maybe when its nearer then only i start panicking go crazy and start to do things FAST ..

another piece of my mind would be on someone close to me .. i dun see the big deal of u goin to local uni .. seriously .. people .. its jus local uni not Princeton .. Yale nor issit Oxford .. if it is then yes .. celebrate all u wan .. but its jus some local uni .. hello .. furthermore the uni is soo near .. no point doin till the extend that he is goin to be away for a very very very long time .. or i will nva see him for another 10years from now .. gowd .. be realistice .. the gf is here .. HE WILL COME BACK .. *glad i have that out*

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

BREAKING NEWS

2008-06-20T01:15:00.002+08:00

aL here .. more breaking news from my scandalous world ..

1. today my mom's birthday .. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM !!!

2. a friend friend got cancer !!! 4th stage ..

3. a friend mom friend got cancer ALSO !!! 4th stage also !!!

no wonder LOH GUAN LYE expanding ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

RESULTS ..

2008-06-18T00:20:00.001+08:00

aL here .. my bro entered UUM .. communication ..

scandalous ??
freedom ??

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

a car-ry, bushy and nutty day

2008-06-16T17:30:00.003+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandalous world .. my life has been pretty hectic .. not with my internship but with my activities .. with soo many things happening .. i guess it is jus FUn .. being busy is something that i sometimes enjoy altho sometimes i might be tired but still i like the thrill of preparing things .. haha .. weird .. anyway this morning i woke up early and was eager to go to my rpm class .. now .. thanxx to tH i adore particularly this person rpm class .. in fact he is realli a good rpm instructor .. back to the story .. as i enter my car, the car jus could not start .. soo i got worried and in my mind i think the battery died .. soo my mom was nagging .. below is the conversation ..

mom, "why kenot start??"
me, "i think the battery died or somethng wrong somewhere..."
mom, "how come this can happen wan? how come u anything also dunnow wan.. how am i supposed to go to work"
Me looking shocked and pissed...

hello if i know i would be a MECHANIC and i would just happily repair the car without having to fork out soo much money for the battery .. and i do not need to study soo hard for my degree already .. i would now open a mechaninc shop .. duhh !! and since the battery died the alarm went nutz .. so i wake up my brother to help me out .. jus sit in the car(coz its not lock and i do not want my things to be missing) just sit .. and he woke up .. and say .. why shud i ?? and he went back to sleep .. *puzzled* .. speechless .. "next time don't use the car .. even if u desperately need it or its a matter of life and death .. i will nva lend u the car again .. i nva ask u 2 pay .. jus ask u 2 sit ..

afta the car was i still went to gym late and miss out on my rpm .. SAD !!!!!!!!! but something interesting happen today at gym .. ASK ME then only i will tell .. just to make it more scandalous .. hahahaha .. the incident jus make my day a more car-ry, bushy, and nutty day .. thatx all people ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

another side of drama ..

2008-06-13T17:21:00.002+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandolous world .. for today we will travel south for the juicy and delicious drama .. another part of the city .. the drama .. hmm lets start off with one drama at a time ..

STALKER .. yes .. people who follow other people in a serious and threataning way .. my friend hav a stalker .. someone who follows you all day round .. but afta much warning and more fighting against the stalker the issue was finally resolved(my friend actually know who the stalker is and its in the clique).. soo i guess the stalker will not follow my friend anymore .. but becareful there is definitely more than one stalker .. even i also have one stalker .. staring at me EVERYDAY .. yes EVERYDAY .. gowd .. but the person is actually quite cute .. *wink* soo i dun mind jus feel weird ..

being in high school u tot u seen it all .. all the drama .. all the turbulence .. all the people .. but .. UNI life is more .. SCANDALOUS .. mixing with the right people will give u great advantages but goes to the wrong group, GOWD bless you .. i always agree of mixing with the right people .. the people who will help you in ur assignments and help u thru uni life .. but sometimes its always good to have old friend to back u up and listen to the problems .. thank gowd i have old friends to be there and listen .. and to my friend whose life is soo chaotic .. good lucks .. and if u need anthing jus "call" ..

this is another part of the world .. back to my life .. its pretty boring and i am concentrating on loosing weight .. soo i hit the gym everyday .. i spend half of my day in gym .. staring(soo near yet soo far) and glaring(so ADORABLE on the outside yes soo ugly on the inside) and thinking .. yes i do think when i exercise .. i have no idea what i am thinking about also .. stuff that bothers me/make me happy .. i shud say ridiculous stuff .. thatxx all for now ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

BREAKING NEWS

2008-06-12T00:21:00.002+08:00

aL here .. scandolous world jus become more scandolous ..

1. my friends laptop stollen .. and could not be online

2. a friend friend's dog died .. there must be hidden meaning to that entry ..

SCANDALOUS ??

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

GOOD things never Happen twice ..

2008-06-11T23:25:00.002+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandolous world .. life has been fun .. with new friends being made left and right .. i guess life for me now is pretty awesome accept the fact that everytime i see my fuel meter drops i am worried .. for me to pump full tank is around RM55 .. dam ex k .. i can buy clothes and stuff with that already .. enuf with the fuel there is nothing to be done about it except praying that some people will do something bout it ..

i had tonnes of fun in my trip with my classmates .. i postpone this entry for quite some time ade .. becoz some people till today still have not given me the pictured YET !!! two weeks ade la .. i want pictures .. the trip was fun .. it was eye opening .. and overall it was fun altho we spend like most of them time in the car driving from point A to point B .. but its the people that i go with that i realli enjoyed the most .. afta the trip a dear friend of mine had a 160 change of attitude .. realli 160 .. CHANGE for the BETTER i would say .. but i guess i jinx it to soon .. enuf said .. old habit die hard .. attitude are the hardest things 2 change .. hopefully somethings strike him and let his good habit come back .. i think this semester every one of us realli bonded .. went karoeke-ing and bowling .. WE are planning a *CHANGE* .. a change of POWER .. we have 3months to plan for the change ..

i feel that i am having my hard time finding my internship .. its realli hard .. went to a few interviews and some realli not the job that i want .. i think my internship job is like planning for my PROM, doing all my SGM activities and also being the centre of attention .. i think this is my intern .. well look on the bright side .. some of the things that i do in this few activities realli related to what i study as well .. soo i can consider this as my internship .. "completely consoling myself"

next entry will be on people and also food reviews .. stay tune for more scandolous stories .. coming up ..

i know you love me
xoxo

~aL~

MALAYSIA TRULY ASIA

2008-06-04T18:00:00.002+08:00

aL here .. ur one and only source to my scandolous world .. today i am not goin to thrash anyone .. i am gonna thrash the government .. this is maY-JAH .. OMFFFFFG .. did u see today headline .. the govt is to increase petrol by 78cents .. 78cents !!! what the MF ?? that means food is gonna increase .. EVERY BLADY THINGS IS INCREASED !! soo i shud say hawker food or economy food is not goin to be economical anymore .. come on govt .. whats the reason behind all this ..

have u consider that the fact that some country pay for the exact oil price is no.1 the food in certain countries are cheap and affordable .. but for us when petrol increase food price is gonna increase as well .. if thats the case then i can start eating fine dining since its gonna be about the same price .. and 2nd other country public transportation is sooo sooo sooo efficient and user friendly .. look at our neighbouring country .. why wanna bother wasting money on petrol when their public bus is soo damm efficient .. what bout us ?? try sitting for a BUS in my COUNTRY .. u can start crying .. what bout taxis then ?? you will still cry but not tears will come out instead blood will come out ..

i really don't get the increase .. if by 20cents or 30cents its understanble but OMFG 78cents .. what bout all our natural resources available in our country .. what happen to the profit from selling them .. our country is soo vast with natural resources but somehow we are still screwed .. then what happen to all the opposition party members that promised people during the election that there will be no major fuel price increase .. WHAT HAPPEN ?? WA WHERE ARE U ?? AAB R U INSANE ?? OR U HAVE TOTALLY LOST UR MIND .. pls before u increase can't u all know how much an average middle income group earn .. u wan all the middle income to become hardcore poor .. DUHH !!!

malaysia truly asia .. one thing we can put this way is whatever other ASIANS country don't have we have it .. EXHIBIT A - as mention above .. one things for sure petrol price increase my weight is decreased ..

i know you love me ..
x0x0
~aL~

in rememberance

2008-06-04T01:07:00.002+08:00

in true respect to fashion let us all mourn for the death of a pioneer - YVES SAINT LAURENT .. lets us pray that his spirit will rest in peace .. ~NMHRGK~

xoxo
~aL~

this is me again ..

2008-05-27T22:36:00.003+08:00

aL here .. welcome to my world of drama and full of goss and trashing people .. my days of holiday has passed 4 days .. my summer holiday which i named it .. nothing much happened except for some juicy drama .. holiday started off with a very nice warmy kick start .. everyday gym-ing to loose all thew weights and making me more pleasant to the eye .. people has been saying me tonnes of nasty words .. but hey .. this is the real world .. i must survive .. GYM-ing was fun .. as usual .. i stretch and stretch .. sweat and sweat .. i lurve gym .. its like my morning caffeine .. pumping blood to my brain and keeping me fresh till around 5pm .. its also like having sex without partner .. anyway .. my holiday is quite lame coz no class means no drama .. but i am bout to proof u wrong ..

i just dun understand certain things .. for example .. people learn 2 drive so that she can drive on her own and be independent and do things that she want .. but no .. u must insist that evryone have 2 fetch her here and there .. then whats the point of wasting RM700 for her to learn how 2 drive .. rite ?? i mean whats the point of taking a license and not using it .. come on don't waste money on things that u dun use in the future ..

another thing is .. i dun get certain people .. when he is around with people he can be super nice but when his friend is not here then he can be a such a pain in the ass .. wanting to do only the things that he wants to do .. act like a king .. act like there is no rule in the game .. but anything in life there is rules .. rules that we do not see but still we respect it and follow it .. well enough said .. "KARMA will work it ways"-i.t.c.h ..

anyway .. i am goin on a trip this weekend .. soo c yah all soon ..

xoxo
~aL~

BACK TO PENANG

2008-05-24T01:55:00.003+08:00

aL here .. after my exciting and full of drama trip in KL which i promise to write .. but just that i still could not find the words to describe the whole trip soo goin to put that on hold .. soo all faithful readers .. pls be patient for the KL entry .. i am gonna write bout my life after i came back .. i came back .. and things began to get pretty hectic .. 1st of all i have my studies .. and i can say that with lecturers scaring us that the exam is goin to be hard .. it was realli stressfull .. proof "pimples - they are popping out all over my face" one day before exam went studying with my study group in a hotel .. in A HOTEL .. well .. we did revise finish all the subjects that we are supposed to study .. YAY !!! and some of the things that we studied actually come out .. *haha* anyway .. test is now over .. HOOORAY !!! HOLIDAYS for 3 months .. but i am finding for an intern .. which i already send out my resumes and none seem to respond yet .. hopefully i can get a best intern offer ..

after test went outing wif classmates which was fun .. pictures goin to be out soon .. already plan for a trip which was goin to come true .. yes .. this is going to be the 1st time that i am goin out on a trip for my classmates .. soo can't wait for the trip .. hopefully nothing happened .. soo today was SKH birthday .. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOTONG !! *haha* about the outing it was okie .. hope that it was longer ..

anyway .. here are my thoughts of the day .. i was reflecting on certain things .. when people become friends they accept each other behaviour wether it is good or bad .. but sometimes people are not perfect .. i mean everyone have flaws .. as a friend when we do things together or go out together and your friend show the flaws and you feel embarassed by it .. just DUN SHOW IT .. and if you are realli embarassed by it just tell the person and dun mix with him/her in public .. since 1st day of friendship we already accept who he/she is .. soo .. i guess when we go out with friends we shud not be embarassed by how he/she reacts ..

and 2nd was people nva do change .. no matter how much he/she say can change .. people will be the same .. esp when it comes to bad behaviour .. no matter how much u say/advice/philosophy/priciples .. and try to tell them the truth .. if he/she dun one 2 accept the fact .. then he will nva change .. come on .. grow up people .. i must applaude who ever the person parents are for raising such a good child .. a child that has soo many principles and can go wrong in his/her life ..

btw .. my holidays are here and i am soo glad that i get to relax .. i might not be goin to TIOMAN, SINGAPORE or BANGKOK or ITALY .. but i am glad that i am at my home relaxing and penning out for my 3 months holiday ..

xoxo
~aL~

A WHORE STORY

2008-05-14T01:21:00.002+08:00

i read in a friend's blog this very very touching article ..
everyone shud go read it ..

CLICK THIS LINK

~aL~

KL chANges EVERYTHING

2008-05-14T00:36:00.004+08:00

hey there everyone .. i am back

Kl was fun .. it was enjoyable .. i had tonnes of fun in KL .. with all the malls and the drama .. all the things that happen make me change my perception on certain things and esp on life .. not only that i also realise what is called FRIENDSHIP .. things can be nice on the outside but deep inside we will nva know a person hearts and how he/she thinks .. will elaborate more when i find a better line 2 put on what had happen ..

sadly no pictures were taken on all the things .. hope to go dere again .. how i wish i could relieve the moment again .. but anyway now i am back here in PG .. "my usual life" .. KL life was more hectic .. compare to the ones in PG .. as in more drama and more thngs that hapen .. anyway .. i am gonna say KL article by article .. so that i have more things to write .. thatxx all .. BYE ..

~aL~

-i wrote this earlier in the evening but i dun have the internet connection and somehow i want to post this up .. As i sit here in this room writing in this blog .. i feel soo sad .. sad 2 see that the this is what my family has become .. so many lies and drama .. as a person of faith .. i feel soo weak .. knowing that this is a challenge and i have no more energy to continue on .. and as a person, a human .. there is soo many hatred inside of me that is waiting to be explode .. and one day leave and nva to come back again .. i dream about the day where i will be happy and life is ful of joy .. true happiness is what i want but these days seem to be just a hope .. a hope that will or will not come true .. i wish to leave this place of unhappiness .. to somewhere .. somewhere where there is still happiness and no sorrow ..

Leaving .. i know that going away is not a solution but sometimes leaving seems like a good idea at this time .. is this karma ?? have i got enuf of it yet ?? i will nva know the answer but whatever that i am facing .. isn't it enuf already .. some people might read this and try to correct my thinking but this is what i feel now .. i feel soo tired .. i dun wan 2 fight anymore .. i dun wan 2 .. i am only human after all .. i have tried and now i realli need a break .. -

1 MORE ...

2008-05-08T09:24:00.002+08:00

yay !!! i shud rejoice that finally i dun have 2 have sleepless nights panicking bout slides or worrying that there might be some error in my coursework and also stressing out on my presentation .. yes !! i stress out during my MM presentation coz it was scary .. all my presentations, handling in assignments are over .. HOORAY .. i am extremely glad is over .. BUT .. i do have one test .. one idiotic test to remind me that my holidays are still in a few weeks time .. after that i will have a 3 months break which i would probably do some industrial training .. problem now is .. WHERE ???

after everything was over .. went out wif my classmates to AUTO CITY .. why am i making a buzz .. its coz i nva been dere .. NVA .. i do pass there occasionally but nva been to that area .. hmm .. it was not bad i guess .. the area was very brightful .. went to eat at SEouL gARdeN(thanxx ImeL) .. coz our birthday girl wants to eat it .. hmm .. Seoul GaRden was oki .. some of the things that is available in IslanD are not avaiLable in the MAinland wan and vice-versa .. the food was oki .. but the service there .. OMFG .. was EXTREMELY NICE .. i mean it .. they were obeying to our every request .. even the part where we wanted to use the close section .. GOOD SERVICE .. the freakiest moment in AUTO CITY was when we went to MCD afta dinner .. as we enter MCD .. everyone was looking at us .. not only me .. but every single one of us .. they will stop what they are doing and look at us .. its as if a whole bunch of celebrity enter the room and the whole area pause for one second to look at us .. i am dead serious .. this is definitely not a perasaan thingy .. in MCD nothing much happen .. played "GAMES of PERCEPTION" and getting to know new friends .. yes .. somehow we are loud or crazy enough that people actually came and talk 2 us .. i feel all of us are lil bit out of our minds when we are together ..

lets make a survey .. this is to only people in my MARKETING CLASS .. do u think we occasionally lost our mind or become insane when we hang out together ?? pls put ur answer down on the comment box ..

enuf of that .. i can't wait for holidays .. time to soak up the sun and hit the beach .. time for party and goin out with friends .. its summer time .. **PAUSED** i do have summer all year long .. i am a bit cuckoo ..i guess thats it for now .. will update pictures on what have i been doing once i get the pictures from every camera .. and also once i come back from KL ..

signing out ..

~aL~

ps, this is the song which i am currently addicted .. the video was okie .. i dun realli get the 1st part .. enjoy people ..

AWKWARD

2008-04-28T17:12:00.003+08:00

here i am back blogging again .. nowadays after seeing all my friends soo busy updating their blogs .. makes me wanna update more .. but life is kinda boring these days .. nothing much happen accept the fact that i had a very very awkward weekend .. is just weird .. i mixing with the people that i dun usually hang out with ..

it started out wif Fri where i went to have supper till quite late coz was busy chatting .. chatting with the people that i usually dun hang out at .. i was not chatting .. i was more of like listening and saying my opinion .. and then on SAt i went out wif my college friends and people whom i just met for the very 1st time .. .. is this some sort of meeting and getting to know new friends weekend .. but at the same time i saw a lot of people at Gurney .. it soo good to see of them .. seriously i saw my seniors to lZ(who told me she is goin to KL) to tonnes of people .. gowd .. i nva met soo many people in one area before .. finally on SUn went to dR house to discuss bout our group project .. i mean i mix with E & W but dR i barely talk 2 her .. but here i am at her house eating ice cream, indo mee and looking at all her LV(she has a massive collection of LV's) .. shockingly she was very friendly and her house is now our group discussion spot ..

what a weird weekend .. i mean its just weird coz i don't mix with all of them .. maybe just hi bye .. but this weekend is like talking to them .. crapping and was like soo close wif them .. its like what i would do with my friend friend .. hmm maybe it was meeting new friends new weekend .. *haha* thatxx all CHIAOxXX - need 2 continue my CW .. one more to go .. *HOORAY!!!*

~aL~

PEOPLE

2008-04-24T22:54:00.002+08:00

i am back again ..

and this time i want to write bout people as what the title says .. people are very interesting and unique form of living orgasm in our planet .. and of coz people is very very fascinating .. what i want write now might be some things that happen that makes me wonder or ponder .. seriously why is there certain type of irratating people in this world .. i dun meant the deaf or mentally challenged .. i mean the ones that are sane enuf to create drama afta drama .. troubles afta troubles .. but of coz without them what would life be ..

there is one type of people whom i seriously think are soo horrible .. ok .. maybe not horrible but just unbearable .. irresponsible people till the extent that evrything is not important .. regardless of age everyone has responsibility .. maybe when we're young .. our responsible are less but when u grow older everyone has their own responsibility and play a role .. but certain people are soo useless or dun bother till the extent that everything else are not important .. who do hell do u think you are ?? KING ?? if ur the king also you have responsibility .. people do mistakes all the time .. soo say ur wrong and own it .. is it soo wrong to do that .. i know its hard .. even sometimes i screwed up .. no1 is perfect in this world .. if evryone is perfect then there is no this word call .. CHANCE ..

another type will be selfish idiotics people .. i mean everyone in this world also thinks bout themselves .. even me also i agreed sometimes to be quite selfish .. but not to the extend that you only think bout urself and only urself .. and this type of people will usually use other people .. after using them throw them away and say bye bye .. KISS MY ASS .. kena it once .. twice and no more 3 times .. i am gonna put my guards up to this type of people .. when u want things .. u want it fast fast .. or being superbly nice or complain or nag or just being a pain in the ass .. but other people want to use .. ur soo selfish till the point that u can be just soo revengeful and can say words like "you have no right to use because my stuff are more important/last time u did this to me .. now i am treating u back the same way" WTF .. ur the one that started all this and now u wanna be soo revengefull .. hello .. i bought it pay it and i have every right to use it ..

another type of people will be the ones that are soo controlled by their environment .. when certain things happen they will put a sour face or shud i say black face and be angry for no blady damm reason .. its okie for us to be angry or to be sad or to be happy .. we are human after all .. but not for that blady damm long and for the blady same reason .. this is insane .. i dun do this to people .. i do have emotions .. i do have feelings .. if u think what u did will not affect us .. yes it will .. soo stop being a jack ass and stop letting environment or things controlled ur life .. things happen .. if want to be angry .. its oki .. but dragging it .. and dragging it .. its annoying and creating troubles ..

of coz there is people who are just soo ... KEDEKUT .. soo soo damm KEDEKUT .. i understand the part where we must saved up and keep for rainy day .. but hello .. once in a while its not wrong to go out and eat .. or maybe once in a while its not wrong to eat somethin nice .. people live to eat .. food is very important in our life .. we need it to work our body .. u promise that u will go but at the end of the day more excuses and more excuses .. just another drama DRAMA drama ..

the worst people .. the ones that backstab/betray and say ridiculous things .. this is the worst type of people .. they are the ones that gossips and create rumours and try their every possible way to ruin ur life .. i had this people in my life and if u dun do me .. dun push me till the extent that i bitch bout u .. i have my patience .. if u dun like me say it to me in front and stop being a bitch bout it and tell people .. i do know what people say .. but life is not only bout backstabbing and saying bad things .. sometimes people might hurt u but what bout all the good things in life .. right ?? there is of also good people in this world whom are realli nice .. some people can be soo supportive and so understanding and can be realli there when i needed them .. and i am glad to have these type of people in my life esp now .. pheww ..

sorry if people who read this blog feel that i am wrong or i shud be corrected but this is my blog and this is how i feel now .. soo sorry if i offended anyone .. this is what i feel right now ..

~aL~

less drama .. less coursework ..

2008-04-23T19:54:00.004+08:00

hey everyone ..

its been soo long since i updated anything here .. so sorry for not updating but there is just too much to be done on coursework and to many drama to handle .. i need less drama and less coursework .. well .. coursework wise .. this sem i think i did oki .. not bad .. compare to last sem .. but kinda suxx bout my IB .. its soo sucky coz i am worried that my printing error will get me in trouble or deduct my marks .. hopefully MIss L when marking my paper will be happy .. on top of that i am also having a test .. OMG .. test .. soo long since i study anything for a test .. hopefully i still remember how 2 study wisely ..

people wise i can't wait for MAY and my HOLIDAYS .. everyone plan something .. i have a few planned out by jK* .. BEACH PARTY .. and then my classmate wanna go on a trip .. WHERE ?? i need a lil bit of R&R .. haha .. and my friends are coming back .. soo more nights outing and more drama .. and more time to bond .. anyway i have make friends with a friend .. this sounded weird but somehow i think its good that we are friends back .. more friends to watch my back rather than more enemies .. right ??

its been a great semester and i enjoy every single moment of it .. but its gonna end soon and i shud say .. yay .. holidays coming .. *thinking bout it makes me soo happy* i am gonna have a 3 months holiday when this sem is over .. can't wait to do my intern .. but now i have to find a company to do intern .. maybe not intern but a 3 months job where i can learn bout what i study .. thatx gonna be fun .. and of coz earn some cash .. *haha* its all about money ..

and now here is pictures to show .. not edited coz my photoshop is at my com which is currently under repair..

~OLD toWn

~ME PSP-ing

~my CLASSMATES

~cAM-WhorIng

~AGAIN

~aL~

***will post more up later coz my stupid annoying brother is like a fucking shit load of hell and what is wrong with him ..

MIMI

2008-03-30T22:19:00.004+08:00

i lurve MIMI .. she is still soo damm good .. gotta post it up altho i am sick .. when is this fever going away .. i feel weird coz under the hot weather i have to wear my jackets and hoodie ..

~aL~

MISSING

2008-03-26T18:12:00.002+08:00

hmmm .. gonna update my blog soon but this is just a special entry .. STUFFS have been missing in my house .. MY STUFF .. it is realli no where to be found .. afta searching high and low and also clean my whole room and the whole house .. still my things are no where to be seen .. GASP !!!!

WHERE IZZIT ????

I WANT MY STUFF BACK .. ALTHO IT DOES NOT MEAN ANYTHING BUT I WANT IT BACK .. IT ALSO MIGHT NOT BE VALUEABLE BUT I ALSO WANT THEM BACK .. SOME OF THEM ARE VERY MEMORABLE ..

~aL~